Frenemies | Tommyinnit x FEM!reader

*The truth*

TW: Neglectful parents, eating disorder, cursing

Y/N POV

I awoke to large hands shaking me awake. I could hear a faint, familiar British accent. I slowly opened my eyes, the world being blurry. It took my a few minutes until I saw the bright blue eyes that I had grown to care for filled with deep worry. "Oh thank god" he sighed, running his hand through his hair. I recognized the glow and hum from my PC behind him and quickly realized that I was propped against my bedroom wall. "W-what happened?" I stuttered out, my voice weak from just waking up. "You tell me! I've been messaging you since last night and you haven't responded. I couldn't get the whole party thing from yesterday out of my head and I wanted to know if you were ok. After you hadn't answered all day I got worried so I came over and found you out on the floor. I've been trying to get you up for like an hour now. I feel like shit." he rambled as he slid down the wall to sit next to me. 'Yesterday..? how long have I been out?'

"Shhh..you're rambling" I say as I laid my head on his shoulder and let out a shaky sigh. I tossed the idea of finally telling him about my life in my head around. The boy that I allowed to become my first friend. My first sleepover. The first person I've ever fallen asleep on call with. My first crush. I trusted him. I hated to admit it but I did. I hated to admit that after years I finally trusted someone. Even after the party, I was going to tell him. 

"How long?" he asked. "A few months" I responded, understanding his question fully. 'He beat me to my own truth.' "Why? Why would you do this to yourself?" he asked, pain seeping through his voice. "Because...it was easier to try to meet their expectations..than maybe I thought that I wouldn't be as lonely...that things would be easier..that I could finally walk down a hall without being judged." I said my voice wavering. I felt him lay his head on mine as he intertwined his hand with mine. He started humming a song that I didn't recognize as he gently rubbed my thumb, something I had told him calmed me down when I was upset.

After a few minutes he asked me another question. "How long for your parents?" I hesitated before answering. "My whole life really.." I confessed. We were both silent for a few minutes. "Can I try to help?" He hesitantly asked. I contemplated answering. "Yes" I answered simply. The room was filled with silence once more, the only sounds being my PC and our breathing. My eyes were heavy and I couldn't keep them open much longer. I felt comfortable and safe around him. I trusted him I really did. I continued to listen to the calming sounds that swarmed my room before drifting out of conciseness, into the welcoming arms of my dreams.

Tommy POV

I heard soft snores which told me that she had fallen asleep. I slowly reached for my phone in my pocket, not wanting to wake Y/N up. I opened up Twitter to tell everyone I wouldn't be streaming tonight. 

Tommy @TommyInnit 

No stream tonight. Personal stuff.

I heard Y/Ns phone go off as I tweeted, smirking slightly. I took a deep breath, savoring the atmosphere and the peace that filled the room. I was going to help her. That was a fact. I just needed to take the best approach. I get messages everyday saying that I helped people but I didn't know how I did it exactly. All I do is make content. Make people smile. Thats what I needed to try to do with her. Make her laugh and smile, support her mentally. The laugh and smile that I love. The smile that makes me giddy every time I see it. As much as I wanted to help her as something more, helping her as a friend will be the best I can do for right now.