You never understood why I loved words so much. Why I brought notebooks in every town we went to. Why I always carried them with me when we went somewhere.
You never knew that I wrote poetry about you. You never knew that I wanted to give them to you when we will promise each other forever in front of all our family.
Now I know this will never be.
That there will be no me with you. No future with you. Our names will now only be connected with an empty "do you remember when".
It pains me that there is still so much I wanted to tell you. Things I wanted you to know.
But a small part of me knew that you wouldn't have understood it. You never understood how much I loved you. Never knew that I nearly set myself on fire to keep you warm.
Never knew that I was willing to drown just to keep swimming in your ocean eyes.
You never understood that I put everything in words so I can keep everything close to my heart. Because a small part of me knew that you wouldn't stay, knew that you will promise me everything and will leave. Knew that just because I was your first love I wont be your last- even though you promised me. Now the only thing that I own are these words that I wrote about you.
YOU ARE READING
ONCE IN A LIFETIME
Poetry❤ Once in a lifetime Never the right time To throw out everything we had Try to forget you Gotta pretend to I hope a heart only breaks this bad 💔 Once in a Lifetime I fell, I loved, I broke, I regrette...
