I love you Hayden Daniels!

•PROLOGUE•

Bloom's POV

I miss him like i miss my old days

Day after day the only refreshed thought ,
Is of him .
During these shaggy & depressing days.

I don't know what to do,
I pretend to be happy and moved on.

But deep inside my heart there's hollow
My mind never rests.

I've taken hault in stalking him,
My heart filled with hollow asks for it.

I fear , what if I may forget him, someday, I'll be free but happiness-less that day.
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That day when I needed him the most beside my close ones ,
He never showed up .
Nor he ever sympathized me after what happened to me.

I got to know that something happened to him too,
Difference is that mine was much more painful ,
And his was beautiful to him & her.

I am kind of crushed inside ,
At the same time I don't care
Because I hoped, you might be there outside , thinking about me sitting beside her.

I don't know why ,
I hate him like i love him ,
I wanted him to stand by me,
But he never did.

Why does he not love me ?
Why do people suffer "the lovingback as you do" pain

People say we love you, whenever I say nobody loves me ,
But god knows who do I really want ?
I wanna know if he loves me or ever loved me ?

Do he misses me ?
As i miss him as my old days ,
Even more when nobody is looking .

I miss him like i miss my old days .

These sentences reflect my anguish I've been feeling since we broke, since my heart shattered into a million pieces. I feel so lonely. There's a void consuming my heart. No matter how hard I try, the void never fills.
I never let people see my grief, my anguish and my misery. For them I am normal as if nothing happened. They think me as the old Bloom, bubbly, exuberant , and always cheerful Bloom. However, they are unaware of the reality.

I'm completely screwed knowing that he may never return to me, ever again!
But no matter how hard I try , I can't seem to forget him; he's all in my thoughts, perhaps more like he lives rent-free in my damn brain. It's hard to think about him without piercing my heart with pain. Although I continue to hope that some ray of sunshine will emerge from the darkness consuming me and enlighten me in a way I've never felt before.

And I'm still hoping that one day he'll recognise that all he did was damage me in the name of protecting me from harm.

I still hope maybe someday, he'll come back to me and would light up my soul the way he do, just like he did it in the first place.

Apart from my gloomy story I forgot to introduce myself so, Hey! I am Bloom Parker a bubbly , chubby and kind of a bitchy girl with black hairs and black-brownish eyes who lives in Hamilton, Texas. And is very much obsessed with
‌The Zayn Malik!!!!

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It all began when wr graduated from high school a few months ago, and it's been a while since we friends have seen one other. I had gotten out of the most toxic relationship that had ever happened to mr. "Ashton Vickers" was a nightmare come true for me. I believed he was the best thing that had ever happened to me at first, but he turned out to be demon in disguise. HE WAS KAI IN MY GEMINI COVEN.(#TVDUreference). Except for the fact that atleast Kai was good looking.
Ass-pooping-ton.

He was well aware that my friends meant the world to me, but he continued to make rude comments about them. My male best pals made him feel insecure. He was one big fat insecure ass. He went behind my back and began complaining about me. He caused me to doubt myself and my abilities. He literally made a living hell out if my life.

And now here I am, free of all of his toxicity.

There will be no more going behind my back.
There will be no more trash talking.
No more being dominated by a paranoid maniac.

I grabbed my phone, and made a call to Krystal Klein , my bff to check whether she's ready for tomorrow.
She was ready to take off like a jet.

Then there were my bestest pals Austin and Yash on a conference call, all frantic and enthusiastic about my new beginnings. They were so happy when I told them about the breakup, they were happy that I was now literally free of all toxicity and was happy once again in my great life.
They never liked Aston though.

I fell asleep during the long conference call.

. . .

With each new day comes fresh beginnings. My parents purchased new shoes for me, and my very best friend and closest cousin Amber , purchased brand new denims for me.

And there it was, most awaited day of our lives, right before the " 5 SHADES OF SAVAGES(oh the gang)" on our first day of college.

On my way to college, I hounded my girl-friends about Zayn Malik's new album, ICARUS INTERLUDE. The 5SOS reunited for the first time in a very long time. We exchanged greetings and conversed while touring the college and keeping an eye on literally everything, and we were set to accomplish.

We knew we gad to make our way to the auditorium when the bell rang.

OWEN RODRIGUEZ, our headmaster, greeted and welcomed us to the new life that lay ahead of us. And he even announced numerous FRESHER'S AWARDS, which was going tobe held very soon.
We were thrilled with anticipation for our upcoming adventures.
We all chose our majors in college and started attending classes.

It was a day well spent with my homies.

. . .

When college ended, we all went home together.

I went directly to the kitchen when I got home. When my parents discovered me while having a chat, they inquired, "How was your day, honey?"

"Fascinating, interesting, and full of thrills, just like my expectations," I said.

Suddenly, a notice appeared on my screen, causing my eyes to widen in disbelief and my jaw to drop when I discovered it was from my college.

"We regret to notify you students that a sudden fire has spread over the college campus," it said. Unfortunately, your college is now undergoing renovations and will reopen in one and a half months.
Your FRESHER'S PARTY has been postponed till the college reopens.
Your classes would be conducted entirely online.
Thank you.

Dallas Fort college, Marry Mount University,
Hamilton,Texas.

The first thing that came out of my mouth was, "Oh shoot."

And I immediately called everyone including Amber, Yash & Austin, and started blabbering about it. "What the fuck just happened with me", I argued to everyone. And eventually slept without eating anything in anger.

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