My bones quiver
and I shiver from the sound
Of my world as it cracks
and comes crashing down.
I don't know what to do
Or where I should be going
But I know I should be rising
Not letting myself down
I feel the sensation of falling
And the pressure as I hit the ground
My body is heavy
and my mind weak
I try stand up
and rise to my feet
But I can't get up on my own.
I need help
My voice won't work.
I can't scream
I can't speak
I wave my hands and silently plead
To the people around me
None of them can see
Blinded by the darkness in their own lives
No one stops
They just pass me by
Even the ones who are a constant in my life.
As I lay here I wonder what it's like to be happy
To smile and mean it
To never be down.
To not let the black of life drag me to the ground
I think of this as I start to sink
Water in my lungs
Water in my head
I can no longer think
But that's not a bad thing
My thoughts were dark
Drowning makes me happy
A grateful release
From the pain of life
From the horror of my mind
Finally peace
Finally quiet
Water fills every part of me
I let it
I drown
The darkness won
But as I drift away
The water washes out my scars
The blackness fades
Though, everything is darker
A blurry haze
My life stops
But the world keeps going
So insignificant we are
Meaningless without knowing
In the great scheme of things
We are but a spec of dust
We are nothing.
The end of us is not the end of life
Time continues
Even when we die.
