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Junhwan

Junhoe's POV

I was looking at Jinhwan who decided to fall asleep on our way back to the dorms.

I smiled softly as he decided to rest his head against my shoulder, getting more comfortable.

It's no secret that Kim Jinhwan is beautiful.
Inside and outside.

And honestly, I'm surprised he still didn't find someone. Then again, dating while being an idol isn't exactly ideal.

I looked down at him as I started to gently brush his blonde hair. I have known him for 10 years.

Ever since we first met, Jinhwan was always there for me, no matter what. Not to say we had some kind of... connection even we can't explain.

I couldn't ask for a better friend, but... our new song made me wonder.
Do I want to stay his friend or be something more?

I'm trying to imagine him with someone else and I can't...

I want him to look at me, smile at me, have all his attention. I don't want anyone else to be this close to him.

But I also want him to be happy...
Can I make him happy? Not to say what if he only sees me as his friend or a younger brother?

We shared a lot of things during our years as trainees and as iKON. All of us are really close as family.

Jinhwan and I get along the best with each other... And I want it to stay this way.

Although we make fun of him a lot, he never hesitated to take the oldest brother role. And thanks to him I tried to be better.

Whether it's to improve my Japanese, my singing...
And now I understand that I really like him.

I really like Kim Jinhwan, and I don't want him with someone else.
If I tell him that...

Would I completely end our friendship? Am I ready to risk it?
If I do... Things might get awkward between us. But if I won't...

He'll just disappear one day.

After a while, the car stopped outside of our dorms, so I gently shook Jinhwan to wake him up.

"Hyung... wake up..." I said softly.

He simply hummed, getting closer to me. It's not like I mind.
But he really should be sleeping in his bed.

"Hyung." I tried again, but it didn't seem to bother him. I sighed softly. What am I going to do with him now?

"Just shake him." Our manager told me, but I didn't want to wake him up like that.

Those few months weren't easy for us with the comeback preparations and our maybe hundredth survival show.

All of us are tired.

"It's okay," I said, carefully making Jinhwan lean his head to the other side while undoing my seatbelt.

"I don't mind carrying him. It's just for a few minutes."

I can lift Jinhwan pretty easily, and it's not like we weren't used to carrying each other in the group.
We did it a lot for reality shows, so it shouldn't matter now.

I undid his seatbelt as well before getting out of the car.

I sighed softly before gently lifting him, making sure to hold him tight so he won't fall.

Jinhwan simply hummed again, resting his head against my chest. I guess he really is exhausted.

"Are you sure you're good?" Our manager asked and I nodded.