You know you in love when.. you can have friends with out making it awkward
Hello? I said as I answered the phone.
Hey London, is Ed
Oh Hey Ed how are you?
Good thanks want to hang out tonigt? I really wanted to say yes but I had dance tonight.
Sorry Ed I can't I have dance.
It's all good . He said and hung up.
Well that sucked. I feel like I can't do anything in my life because of dance. I can't believe I have dance everyday. I feel like they think I don have a social life. I had to stay home while my boyfriend and my best friend went to Nevada for X- factor and know I can't catch up with an old friend.
"I hate this mom, I fell like I have to life!" I yelled to my mom
"London you not going to ruin your future now" My mom yelled back at me
Really London I really beileve you can get into that school." She yelled at me be for I could repliey
I know that if I don't get into freaking school, I hate spending so much time with dance I need to have a normal life.
Mom can I please skip today?
London you know what going to happen if you do you know your going to behind. My mom said trying to letcher me.
When Wesley was here I still had to go to dance and his my life why can't I have a day break.
Fine go do wjat you want.
Yes thank you mom I love you so much. I kissed her on cheek and ran off.
I ran down to my room and called Ed and told him that my plans changed he told me that I could hang out tonight. He told me to meet him at his hotel room at 6:30. It was about 4:50 so I still had time to take a shower and get ready. When I got out of the shower I put on my cream lace shirt and black jeans, with my light blue vans. By the time I was all ready it was 6 so I had to go.
I was pretty nevose to see him. I was thinking that I was going to be as good friends as we were. I love Ed so much when we were kids but what he changed and I didn't like it. I got to his hotel room and I called him to come to the lobbie because they didn't believe me that I knew Ed.
"Hey hey she is with me" Ed said while coming out of the elitvater.
"Wow I didn't like that at all" I said giving him a hug.
"Yeah sorry babe"
Wow hearing someone besides Wes coming me babe was kind of scary, but knew
We got into the evlevater and went up to his huge sweet. It was just us two. But I knew he knew I had a boyfriend and we were just friends.
"Want a drink?" He asked getting in to the frige.
"No I can't" I said looking around.
"Why are you pregent?' he said jokinly.
"Yeah" I said as secios as I could
His face went white he staired at me plankly
"No im kidding I can't because of dance." I said as I started laughing
"Don't do that bro" He while you face was truning back to normal color.
I loved being around him and laughing with him. I knew I had a best friend to talk to didn't feel so alone.
"So what movie do you want to watch?" he asked as he open the cupboard with the movies in it.
'Umm what to you have?" I asked jumping on the couch
"What about Step Brothers?"
"YES!" I said jumping up and down
He put the movie in the dvd player and pushed play. He sat riight next to me pretty close. I was werid I didn't think of Wesley at all that night. Just thought of how much I missed Ed. It was like we were alway best friends. I liked how there was no awkwardness while hanging out with him.
He got closer to me more and more. Before I knew it we were cuddling... The bad thing was I felt safe in his arms and didn't care that I had a boyfriend. I guess it was a friendly cuddle. After the movie I graved his phone and ran a round to the kitchen and kept it away from him.
"London give it back." He said on the other side of the bar.
"Come get it!" I said with a little giggle after.
He ran after me I ran back to the couch, he pushed me up angest the wall and put his arm on the wall by my head and I was still laughing. He leand down next to my face and kissed my lips slowly we were kissing for longer then I should of. When I realized what was happenig I pushed him off of me and ''told I can't do this and I was sorry i had to go''.
"London wait" He said and pushed the door closed.
I turned and looked at him with a tear in my eyes.
"I"m sorry" He said looking into my eyes.
I ran out to my car I unlocked it and got in I staired to cry as hard as I ever could.I was so disgusted with my self. I couldn't believe that just happen. I can dot he to Wesley I hated my self I wanted to call Wesley and telll him what happen but I couldn't I can call him and just tell him over the phone I had to tell him in person.I drove home I wasn't abloe to stop from crying no madder how hard I tryed. When I got him I walked up to my moms room and told her what happen. And said I need to tell Wesley in person. She bought me a plane to L.A. for nexted weekend.
The next day I went to dance and got yelled at from my teacher for not being there Yesterday. My teachers name was Jeannette. I don't think anyone liked her anyways. She was really hard on everyone but especially me, because I needed to get in to the dance school. But It was hard to dance with everything on my mind right now. A few dance went by and again i felt alone again. I hated it so much. That night I was thinking maybe I over reacted about the Ed thing. I mean I couldn't feel like this for the rest of my life. But then again I did love Wesley so much and don't want to hurt him.
So I got on the plane and flew to L.A. I told Welsey he didn't take it very well he was really really mad and but he didn't know who Ed Was so he couldn't get mad at him but he did get mad and me for sure. He told me he wanted stop seeing me for a while. My heart dropped to my stomach and I staired to cry into my hands. So that night I flew back home. My mom told me I should talk to Ed and see what he thinks about all this. So thats what I did and he told me to come over. I was really scared to go over there like we were going to end up making out or something and I was not ready for that! I got to his hotel.
"Hey London" He said opening the door and letting me in.
"Hey" I walked in and sat down
I was about to say something right before I can't believe I couldn't see
London be for you say anything I wrote this for you he stared singing
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me)
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
(Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here.
There must be something more).
Bring me to life.
