You know your in love when..... Well I don't know what to say anymore.
I loved Wesley but he feels he can't trust me when he's gone. So now I don't talk to any of them Keaton, Drew or my best friend Dani... I've been hanging with Ed and that's it. I really don't have any friends. Maybe when Wesley comes back to L.A. we will talk more. So dance is my only pririty right now. Which sucks. But I know that I need to catch up so I had to work twice as hard. So after Ed wrote that song for me he told me that it was going to be on his album and it was single. For me thinking that it is a love song and its about me I couldn't do it..,
Last night as I was TRYING to fall a sleep, I was thinking maybe Wesley All ready had a new girl maybe a girl from the X- Factor or a fan or a girl he met on the street. More I thought about it the more I cry-ed by the morning I still couldn't catch my breath. I hated feeling this way inside. I can't believe this is me with the guy I have loved sinse 9th grade and now I'm in senor in High School. So 15 tell 18. Uggh even if I would date Ed it wouldn't be the same as Wesley. I mean Ed is an amazing guy but Wesley is the only guy I could think of.
"Hey" Ed said as I opened the door
"Oh hey Ed" I said wiping the tears from my eyes I haven't told Ed about what happen with me and Wesley so he didn't know why I was crying.
"Why are you crying?" he asked walking in
"Wesley broke up with me" I said as he wrapped his arms around me I cryed into his chest with my heads on my eyes. He didn't say anything we stood there for a while. He started singing to me the same song he sung to me before. I think the singing really helped me from crying I knew I couldn't do anything but cry. Sooner or later we moved to the couch. He held me in his arms.
I could hear his heart get louder the longer we sat there. Before I knew It I was laughing and having fun and smiling again. I was so happy that I wasn't alone throw this.
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I knew I shouldn't of done this but I did.. I looked Wesley up on Youtube and listened to his beautiful voice. But then I saw Wesley and hottie? I clicked it and saw he was holding hand and running away from paparazzi. I couldn't beleive he could get over me so fast. I knew that he wasn't thinking about me anymore like he used to.
She was dark haired and blue eyes and very very skinny and she was very touchy with Wesley. Maybe he really liked her. Maybe I should move on too. Maybe I should try dating Ed. I just don't know right now. My mom said to wait tell he says that its official that there dating.
So I've been waiting for about a week and a half to see if Wesley and that girl were together, nothing has came up yet. Hanging out with Ed isn't same as it was with Wesley. So I needed go get the nerves to call and talk to him, because I really do love him. I don't feel the same way when I with Ed. So i called him.
"Hello" He answered.
"Hey" I said in a sad voice.
"I've been missing you a lot" to hear those word come out of his mouth was amazing.
"Really??" I replied back.
"Yes alot can we go to nados and talk this over?" he asked It was quicket for while before I replied.
"Are you still in the X-factor?"
"No we got cut last week."
"Oh I"m sorry." I said as I tryed not to smile.
"So can you go to night?" He asked again.
"YES, want to meet at like 7 tonight?" I asked getting butterflies in my stomach
"Ok Ill see you than." he said and hung out the phone.
Talking to Wesley was the best feeling in the world. Having him feel the same way. I couldn't wait to tell my mom. I ran up to her room. I "MOM" I talked to Wesley!!!!! She was in the shower so she didn't really hear, I had the biggest smile on my face and thousands of butterflies.
At about 6: 30 I left my house and drove to nados. I saw him. When I walked in he came and gave me a hug and said "Lets sit down."
"How have you been?" he asked as he eye balled me.
"I've been good how about you" it was really awkward talking to him.
"My life sucks with out you in it actually." Wes said while grabbing my hands over the table.
I didn't know what to say to the that so I just sat down and stair-ed at him in surprise.
"So what is the deal with you and Ed know" he asked
"Umm nothing really."
"So you guys are just friends right?" He said
"Yes thats it" I said putting a smile on my face.
"Wow this is easier then I thought it would be." He smilled back at me.
"London will you be my girlfriend again?" He asked me with a cheeky smile on his face.
My whole world got lighter, my face got happier, I felt like jumping up and dancing on the table. I jumped up and ran over to him gave him a hug and whispered in his eye "Yes". I felt my whole life coming back to me again. He stood up and kissed me. I loved it. We stood in nados and kissed the night away. We walked back to my house to tell everybody. When we got there Ed was sitting on the couch waiting for me to come home.
"Hey Ed" I said holding Wesleys hand. I looked at him he had a really sad face on. It made me feel really bad.
"I see you guys are together again!" He said starting to get up from the couch.
"Yeah we talked everything over and it all good.'' I said hugging Wesley's musicaly body.
I always knew that Ed didn't like Wesley. He walked over to the door.
"Treat her right!" Ed Whispered in to Wesley's ear. and walked out.
