O1.01.13
Tuesday
12:OO AM
I stood there on the dock watching the fireworks.. They lit up the night sky like it was their job, it was beautiful.
I was thinking about what I been through this year, heart breaks, deaths, depression, two face people, rumors, abuse, lies, drama.
I was checking my phone every 3 minutes to see if he texted me, me and my boyfriend are in a fight. Great way to end 2012 and start 2013 huh??
I can't believe a year went by already, it felt like it was only 2 months. I didn't want it to end, at least not yet.
Applause filled the area.
On the car ride home I was out like a light. But still not a word from him.
Well I made it, another year goes by.
O1.O2.13
Wednesday
Sisters woke me up from an amazing dream.. Too bad I have to go back to reality, i have to go to the doctors today so I got up brushed my teeth and washed my face, I put on my new skinny jeans with hearts on them and a blank T-shirt, didn't feel like going all fancy today. On the ride to the doctors i got a text from kaley..
You know what they say keep your friends close and enimies closer. so I guess me and her are friends now, she tried to steal my boyfriend but it's all good,
"may josh wants me to tell you he is in the hospital"
right away I texted josh.
"hey what's going on? Kaley told me you're in the hospital?"
"yeah"
"omg what happened?"
" it's too hard for me to tell you"
"ok c'mon you told kaley! You can tell her but not your own girlfriend?"
"yeah it was easy to tell her because she ain't my girlfriend.. She ain't my babe"
Aww I always blush when he calls me his babe..
"alright I will text her"
.........
"WHAAT!!?? She said you might die!?
"yes the doctor said that, and it was too hard for me to tell you"
"why!?"
"because of the stab and my heart stop beating like two times..."
I knew he shouldn't have gotten in that fight!! I started crying.. He said the doctor will give him a call later to let him know if he'll make it..
***
I picked up my prescription the doctor gave me at cvs. Me and josh are in another fight. He went to the mall with delaynie together. The girl that likes him.. Yeah I got mad, jelous.
"I hope you 2 had fun together(:"
I said sarcastically.. Well he got mad,
"C'mon babe don't be like that."
"I would never cheat on you"
"wtf is wrong with you"
Wow I told him I'm going to get mad, jelous, worried, curious but only because I care, if you can't handle me when I'm at my worst, then you defiantly don't deserve me at my best.
