I just know y'all gone call me all types of dumb and desperate but... I THINK I love Heir. If he was some regular ass person to me I would've left a long time ago, from the first sign of disrespect I would've been gone but I'm still here and that's opened my eyes to a lot of shit.
Like the fact I'm dumb behind a nigga that be embarrassing me.
Well not really embarrassing since our whatever we are isn't public but it's still embarrassing to me.
Before I met Heir I had no sexual or romantic life. No hoes, no baby mommas, no friends with benefits nothing, my last relationship was high school which is surprising if you know me like that. I've had women throw themselves at me, they were times when I've found myself interested in others but I was never interested enough to pursue.
Heir was different.
I never looked at Heir in any way form or fashion especially since we were destined to be enemies that niggas was the last thing on my mind. Until the day of the picnic even then falling for him wasn't a plan and I fell quickly, I never had a problem with it because Heir brought color to my life before him work was my main focus it was the only thing I had going, Heir changed that and every time our relationship took a step I got excited waiting to see what's next I looked pass all his faults continuing to chase that excitement but...
Is it worth it?
"Studying?" Jay asks placing down a crate of food before me.
"Life." Jay pauses waiting for me to continue, should I?
Rice, Mac, Loaded Potato, Stir Fry Vegetables, Lamb Stew, Fried Chicken, Corn, Garlic Bread and a Frutee. This a lot of damn food but I ain't complaining I like to eat.
"So you not finna tell me?" Jay presses.
"Why? You gone just tell me to get over it." He sighs.
"Why you still on this?" Jay seemed really annoyed which made me laugh.
"Somebody sent those niggas we still don't know who each of them had different instructions which means there could be other people I don't get how y'all can so easily fall back into life knowing there's still a threat!" I snap at Jay, I ain't mean to but I'm still on this shit and I ain't letting it go.
"I get you Ohm I do but maybe you're wrong?" This nigga deadass, the nigga that stay bragging about being by my side and protecting me?
"It's the way Casper rubbed off on you for me." I scoff.
Jay stares at me a look of distaste and discomfort on his face. I ignore him and go back to this good ass food he bought me, I wanna know where he got it from but it might be his spot so I won't ask.
iMessage From Heir: u still vex?
iMessage To Heir: nigga all you do is piss me off so guess
iMessage From Heir: 🖕🏾❤️
Y'all know what I've been thinking about? The gay sex. Obviously Heir will want to be the top but am I ready to give him that much control over me? I've also done my research and it looks like normal sex to me, it's just two dicks instead of a dick and a pussy, my main worry is if I'll enjoy it because I'm a kill that nigga if I put myself in such a vulnerable position and don't even enjoy it.
"Despite where we stand on this situation we still cool?" Jay asks, how the fuck I forget he was here?
"Yeen even gotta ask bruh." I smile at Jay.
I hate that I make him question our friendship because I don't put in much effort, I promise I'm a work my way around it.
"I may not act like it and I know it bothers you but I love you bruh you the only friend I got nigga my best friend." Jay smiles at me I return it.
"Well ya best friend got a job to do I just wanted to bring you lunch." Jay waves me off and leaves.
He ain't got no work planned for today but ok this nigga think he slick.
iMessage To Heir: busy?
iMessage From Heir: yea... we can link tonight
iMessage To Heir: neva said I wanted to link but ok, parkout?
iMessage From Heir: lol, bet.
Fuck it I'm a give in tonight. If my fears come through and he ends up leaving after I let him smash I can't be mad because I saw it coming, I just hope the dick worth the heartbreak.
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AN// I been working on Heir and Ohm sex scene but it sounds really poetic for this book because I put a lot of emotion into my smut I like when my readers can feel what I write, lol. I'll try changing it to suit the tone of this book, I just don't want it to be cringe and hard to read like others, if it is PLEASE tell me.
