[ 1#callofduty ] Since you were a kid you always wanted to help and honor your country: America.
Growing up you enter the CIA because of your skills, wich are more improved than your partners; intelligence, strongness... and the important thing is...
I froze. Each part of my body wants to run away, while the other part wants to find who is behind me. Who can still be awake at this time of the night? We have an important mission tomorrow and we all need to rest. But I'm not part of this, because my mind has too many questions and no answers. I know he's a man because of his massive hand and his breath on my neck. Is he an enemy? Did they find us? I don't feel any gun on my head so I think he doesn't want to hurt me but I can still be in trouble. Even if I work and live here there are many rules, and one of them is to rest when we can, and don't go alone in a place without permission. Only the leaders have got this privilege. So I broke two rules tonight. If the person behind me is Hudson I'm in big trouble. I don't have the nerve to turn around and see his face but I have to. I feel an intense smell of cigarette and mint, which is start to become my favorite without a reason. Well, to be honest the reason is him. Finally I turn around and see Adler standing in front of me. "Adler! You scared me." - I say breathing again. "Bell, I didn't know you were awake. I thought the last mission tired you out." "Yeah, I thought that too, but I overthink sometimes. Too many questions, you know." "Yeah it happens to me too. But you should rest." - he explains. "Aren't you mad?" - I ask with a tiny voice. "Mad? Why should I be mad?" - he laughs. "Because I'm here instead of sleeping in my bed." - I answer blushing. "But I'm here too, aren't I?" - he shows the place with his hands. "I guess." - I scratch my head. I admire his ability of talking with people. "What were you doing?" - suddenly he becomes serious. "I was looking inside this room through the window."- I answer watching the needles. "Ah, that room... "- he becomes more serious."But there's nothing interesting to look at, trust me." I know there is something inside here that I mustn't see. "And what were you doing? I thought everyone were asleep." - I change the topic of the conversation. "Smoking outside. As you can hear it's still raining. The weather in German is awful." - he mumbles. "I agree." - I laugh. We cross the hall of the safehouse to the stairs and we sit down on the steps. We don't know what to say: the silence is everywhere. Adler plays with his cigarette and I keep looking at my shirt, wondering where I took it. "Let me guess"- he begins" You still have nightmares." "I had one tonight, so I wake up." - I sigh. "C'mon, let's go to your dorm, so you can tell me about it."
When Adler and I reach my room he closes the door and we both sit on the bed. We didn't turn on the light so nobody can caught us, but we can't see each other very well. I never thought we would be so close, one day. Actually, the team knows Adler is nice but he doesn't let anyone get closer to him. "So, tell me about your nightmares." - he begins. "There's nothing much to say." - I sigh. "But we have to find the source of your fears." "I guess." I don't know if I want to share this. He will think I'm crazy or my memory is damaged... forever. "I keep dreaming about a man-" Adler lays down, with his arm under his head.
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"- and a women." - I continue the story. " I wake up in this room with them. The room has a strong red light so I can't see them well, and because my vision is blurry." Silence. I'm waiting for Adler to say something. "Go ahead." - he encourages me. "Then the woman tries to do an injection; the first time in my neck, the second time in my eye." - I lay down too. I can't see his face but I feel Adler's muscles stiffen. "Did they- ask you something?"- Adler is nervous. What is he thinking about? "They asked me for some informations. But I have no idea what they were talking about." "And did you see their faces?" "As I told you before, no, I didn't see them." Adler takes a breath of relief. Seems he know more than me. Should I ask him about the television? Maybe not. Another time. "Something strange happened to me tho; when I woke up from the nightmare I found myself already dressed with this long shirt. But I know I took a shower before, my hair are wet! I must passed away or fall asleep, this doesn't matter. I can't remember very well, and I'm afraid I'm losing my m-" "I dressed you." - Adler interrupts me before I could finish. "You're not losing your memory again." What did he say? "You-?" "I found you in that shower and you were passed out. I couldn't leave you there. It's alright, you had a lot of stress lately, it happens." - Adler explains. I'm so shocked and I can't say a word. It's so embarrassing but so sweet. "That's where this shirt comes from." - I nervously laugh. " A little big for me but very comfortable." "You can keep it. I mean, I have too many of them." - he quickly correct himself. I feel Adler blushing through the dark. I want to change the topic of the conversation. "What are you thinking about? The mission?"- I ask. "Exactly. I think you need to learn more physic combat." He can't see my face, but I immediately blush too. I know I messed up, even on this mission, but I tried my best. I don't say anything and let the silence go between us, again. "I mean, it was our fault, because we lost the Kraus's view, but you can still learn more." Fuck, and I even thought he admires me. You're so stupid, Bell. I decide to remain in silence. He's right, the CIA only took me because of my decrypting skills. How many times I should be saved before getting expelled from here? "Bell?" - Adler turns on his side and watch me. "I know. I need more practice. Hudson already hates me so if I don't have the necessary physic skills he will fire me." "Nah, he doesn't hate you. He's just like that."- Adler looks at the ceiling again. "Did he say something to you when I had the accident?" - I ask showing my wound. Adler takes a moment to reflect. "I saw him only one time, at the meeting with the American president." "You guys had a meeting with the president while I was on coma? Fuck, I lost this chance!" - I ironically laugh. The meetings are always so boring. Fortunately my mind removed them all. "Yeah, that was after we captured Arash and- after your accident..." - he quickly says. "So, what did you guys talk about?" "You're so curious Bell, aren't you?"- Adler smiles and starts to talk.
