jacob bertrand imagines

thinking of her- hawk

this request is for eliskyler
this one is sad and a bit shorter
slight tw for and ed!!
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I stare at the food that sat on the restaurant's plate.
"Honey is everything alright? You've barely touched any of your food." My mom asked me, evidently worried for me.
"Everything is fine mom." I say, knowing my hands had started to shake.

I never got like this before; I couldn't fight the urge to think he still liked her. Why wouldn't he, is the real question. She's got everything, perfect eyes,hair, personality-everything. Why did I get so in my head.
It was like a constant battle of trying to reassure myself he loved me enough to not leave. If I were Hawk I'd run back to her too.

"Excuse me," I say standing up from the seat I had once been placed in. My family and I were eating at a restaurant which had been family owned. I felt terrible for not supporting but I needed him now.

I ran to Hawk's house, knowing he'd probably be by himself....unless he was with her. I needed to stop thinking Hawk was with moon. I knew Hawk loved me but sometimes I'd catch him looking at Moon with the same loving eyes he'd give me.

I knock on his door, hoping he's home.
"He-y/n!" Hawk exclaimed, getting all soft once he saw me.
"Hi!" I say trying to match his energy, although it's hard when I feel like he's still in love with his ex.

Hawk and I sat on the couch for a little while and I just couldn't take it any longer.
"You like her don't you?" I ask, dropping his hand
"What?" Hawk asked, furrowing his eyebrows
"Moon...there's no way you don't still love her, she's literally perfect. And I know how much you loved her so if you still love her, that's alright. It's just killing me because I don't want you to not be happy with me." Finally I said what I wanted to say after years.

"Y/n...are you serious?"

Wellnofuckingshit

"Look y/n, I love you more than words could ever explain. I would do anything for you, wether it be one of the craziest things to ever exist. And I know I don't express my emotions the way I should, but I love you so much. I'm scared that you're going to leave me like Moon did. I don't want to go through that again..."

"Hawk, in wouldn't ever do that. I love you."

After all this time I was scared he would leave me for her; when he would give me the world times two and stay with me for eternity.