Tommorow na ang fashion week, two weeks ago lang ng yare yung pag kompronta ko.
I still don't know if im going or nah.
"Just go Seungmin, they need your help. Plus Jaime said na madami ang dadalo." Nazie said while eating snack.
"I'll go, okay..."
"...Goodnight, inaantok na ko."
"7:29 pa lang Sueng ang aga mo matulog."
"Pupunta ako nga ako bukas, malamang hindi ako pwedeng matulog basta basta dun."
"Okay sabi mo. Good night." Nazie said at tinalikuran ako.
It's a normal day today, wala na yung tawag ng tawag at text ng text.
I don't even know him pero text ng text ng random things pati ata pag papaligo niya sa aso niya na ikwento na niya.
After ng nangyareng pag kompronta ko blinock ko na rin yung number niya.
Pumunta muna ako kay Azia bago sa room ko.
"Hi papa." She greeted me while watching something sa ipad niya.
"Hi baby. I will be gone again for one week." I said at niyakap siya.
"Okay po papa, pwede naman po kami pumunta dun diba?"
"Yes baby, pero you can't stay for a long time."
"Okay po papa. Dito ka na lang po mag sleep." She said at binitawan yung ipad niya.
"Papa, when will you get married po?"
That's so random.
Ni hindi ko nga na iisip na mag karon ng jowa eh.
"I don't know too baby... Do you want me to get married and leave you and your mom?" I asked her.
This kid.
"Of course not papa, i want to be with you and mom forever but if you get married, you will have your own family and you will leave us. But you can visit us or we can visit you."
"Okay. Matulog na tayo anong oras na stop watching na."
"Okay po."
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"Good morning papa, are you going na po?"
"Yes baby. Behave yourself okay, wag mo pahirapan mommy mo hahaha."
"Of course i will behave papa. I will miss you po." Azia said with her puppy eyes.
That's cute.
"Okay baby. I will go now. Goodbye." I said then kissed her cheeks.
"Goodbye papa take care po."
"Bye Seungminnie, goodluck!" Nazie said.
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"Hey Seung."
"Hi Jamie. What time yung start?" Tanong ko kay Jamie.
"Actually inusog namin yung date, we will start tomorrow morning wala pang exact time. Para na rin makapag pahinga yung ibang model's galing ibang bansa."
"Okay, mag ikot ikot na lang siguro muna ako." I said.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganto yung nararamdaman ko.
Feeling ko may mangyayareng hindi ko magugustuhan or something.
I don't like this kind of feeling.
"Okay then, i will get going see you tomorrow." Sabi ni Jamie at umalis na.
I don't really know kung saan ako pupunta.
kung saan lang ako dalhin ng paa ko dun ako.
hindi talaga pamilyar sa lugar na to, madami namang tao kaya pag na ligaw ako or makidnap may witness naman.
i dont know how to describe this place but its like a small park, full of trees and flowers.
ang presko ng paligid.
i shoud visit this place again with Azia and Nazie.
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It's already 5 pm but im still here sa ilalim ng puno.
i been thinking about Hyunjin.
is he doing well?
i dont know why i feel guilty leaving him without giving him a chance to explain his side.
but im still thinking if his explanation is worth it to hear.
its been a years since that thing happen.
i still dont know why he did that.
is it my fault that i didnt let him explain?
am i scared to hear his explanation?
or
im just scared that i will accept him no matter what?
im too scared.
i dont really like this kind of feelings.
i just cant accept the fact that he cheated 5 years ago, and im still stock with our memmories.
