The unknown sender

Barnes

Castiel's POV:

I know the person he's talking to is me but still, it kind of hurt when he rejected me because of the online guy.

I know later I'll tell him about who I really am, but it pains me that I accidentally outed myself just for a good time.

I don't regret giving him a blow job nor a hand job I enjoyed it, but now he knows the school bully is gay.

He could tell the whole school what I am, fuck I shouldn't of let my feelings get ahead of me. I really want Dean Winchester as my boyfriend, but I'm terrified what if my conservative family finds out and I'm kicked out.

Dean doesn't know my family is religious, but he knows Rodgers is.

I sit at the end of Dean's bed and he crawls on the back of me, he asks for us to be friends. I agree, he soon gives me a back scratch and oh his it feels so good.

It later ends with him getting on the comfortable covered bed and sits in a chair, he pulls a keyboard out and plays. I watch him play and change notes on paper, he later starts to sing. God his voice is like an Angel.

'I am lost in a rainbow
Now our rainbow is gone
Overcast by your shadow
As our worlds move on'

I watch him in awe and I listen by staring at him as he looks out the window, I smile at how good he is and how cute this is.

'In this shirt I can be you
To be near you for a while
In this shirt I can be you
To be near you for a while'

Dean looks at me and I smile, he smiles back as he sings.

'There's a crane knocking down
All these things that we were
I awake in the night
To hear the engines pout'

I take off my jacket and I grab a squish-mellow holding it and watching this beautiful man, that could be my boyfriend but he would most likely want to date Rodgers.

The fake me, but it isn't really fake because I am a nice person. I choose not to be, I use that account so I can be me without having my bad boy status fall.

'There's a pain, it does ripple
Through my frame, makes me lame
There's a thorn in my side
It's the shame, it's the prize'

'Of you and me, ever changing
Moving on now, moving fast
And this touch must be wanting
Must become through your ask'

'But I mean dare to tell you
That I love you - it never ends
And I bled everyday now
For a year, for a year'

'I did send you a note
On the wind for to read
Our names there together
Must've fallen like the sea'

'To the depths of the soil
Buried deep in the ground
On the wind I can hear you
Call my name, held the sound'

I walk over to Dean and I sit on the floor in front of him, I watch him play the piano and I'm jealous. I see he has a guitar, violin, and other instruments with the keyboard piano. He really is a musician but never really shares it.

'I am lost
I am lost in a rainbow
Now our rainbow is gone
I am lost in a rainbow'

'Now our rainbow is gone
I am lost, I am lost
I am lost, I am lost
I am lost, I am lost'