misunderstood: mattheo riddle 🥀

3. FEEL

freaks by surfs curse. i feel like it matches mattheos energy right now so you should listen! 😝

back to y/n pov:

once the lesson finished i decided to go back to my dorm and read my book that i needed to finish. it was a romance novel you could say, the two of them were completely different people... or so they thought. the boy named hunter, the bad boy that is a liar and assumed to be evil. and then the girl, her name was aurora, she was sweet and she loved nature. then there lives took a huge turn, i want to find out what it is.. i plop myself onto my comfy bed and open my book to page 345, i think reading is comforting. there's silence but also so much imagining going on inside your head, picturing the characters and how they would act. imagining there perfect story was fun.

i didn't have any other classes for now, i do have defence in the dark arts after lunch. but now i read my book. almost getting to page 400. i fold the edge on the thin paper and close the book putting on my bed side table, i get up and go to lunch, when i arrive there were many people asking for me to sit with them. i chose to sit by the griffindor group i met on the train because they seem interesting and fun to talk to.

"hey y/n, how's your first day at Hogwarts been"
"it's been great thank you George" i say politely
everyone starts laughing, i get confused
"that's Fred y/n" ginny giggles and i realised what i'd said
"oh sorry haha" i laugh with them
"it's alright don't worry about it" the other twin speaks instead confusing me a whole lot more.
i tilt my head and frown in utter cluelessness
"don't worry y/n you'll remember who is who soon enough" Hermione adds
"we should put labels on them both" harry chuckles
"i've not known them for long and i already know they'd swap them around to fool people" they all laugh at my response and agree with me, we talked for a long time,i'd been here for less than a day and i had already made more friends then i ever had in beaux-batons, it felt great. i was really happy knowing this year will be better than a year i've ever had in my old school.

next i had DADA with snape, i heard that he was a horrible teacher and no one liked him. but i'll my own opinion on him when i get into class. given 5 minutes left i say goodbye to my new friends and head off to my lesson, good i was on time. as i walk in i see a few people standing at the back of the class, the rest behind me. i walk toward them and everyone else does the same, great a seating plan. let's hope i'm sat with a friend...although i don't see any of them. the professor had the specific seats written down on a piece of paper. he started calling names

"Draco, crabbe. top left... opposite luna and blaise" i heard Draco snicker as they sat down.
snape carried on calling names until i was the only one left standing, i must be sat in my own, and good it's at the back
"y/n- and-
and? there's no-one hear
"mattheo"
what? no no. he doesn't seem to be in class so i sit down, what confused me was why would they let him in the school? knowing he was a killer? i'm not sure why they did it but they did i guess. he didn't come in for all lesson. i listened to the professors words but i already understood and had learned it before so i sat twisting my quill round my two fingers.

"class dismissed" snape bellowed before strutting out the room before the children, maybe everyone was right. he wasn't the best teacher, but i wouldn't hate him.

i leave by myself after as everyone barged through trying to get out, i elegantly walk back to my dorm. i shut my door and sit on my bed, i pick up my book from my bedside table staring at it, i wanted to read but sometimes i like to process what's happening and think of the different roads they could be driving on, so i lay down in a comfortable position, my face buried in my pillow, my arms wrapped round it and my leg bent outwards... i think about the book for a while but i get distracted. just in deep thought, i felt my breathing getting heavier and i was more comfortable in where i was laying. my eyes started dropping down begging for them to shut, i let go and end up falling asleep.

mattheos pov:

i'm just laying in bed, there's nothing left to do. this opportunity was lost and i had no hope anymore. i wanted to cry, i don't cry in front of people because it makes me feel trapped so i let it out when no one is watching. i feel the tears form in my eyes and a large clump in my throat, stopping me from breathing unless i let it all out. i don't like to get under control, being Voldemort's son there are a few things that don't happen to a normal witch, sometimes when i let out a lot of emotion weird things happen. usually i've been seeing things i've been thinking about teleport to me. and sometimes they aren't good things, so i try keep it under control.

i lay there... numb to the pain i've recently let out. no weird magic happened, but i could feel it coming. i was laying with a leg straight and the other bent, both my arms resting on my chest. i could tell my eyes were puffy, and my nose was sniffling too. but it's fine i'll have a shower.

i go to sit up but the lights flicker. oh no it's happening, i feel a bad energy waving around my room and the flickering seems to get intense, that's when i see her. for a split second. she was laying down beside me, her face buried in a pillow and her leg up. before she disappeared. why did she appear? i decide to wait for the living nightmare to stop. but it only gets worse from then, the lights jump on and off rapidly. she appears then disappears. closer to me, she seemed to be on my mind. and it reminded me i've got no chance. i was just seeing things

it was going fast. she was there yet gone she almost looked transparent. it suddenly stopped. everything was back to normal, i think. i sigh of relief. it was the end-

the lights switch off, i feel the rush again, but it didn't seem bad. they slowly creep back on to reveal her again. but she wasn't gone in an instant. she was laying on me. my hands on her back and the same with hers, her head was buried deeply in my chest. wow- this is my first time feeling anything. you know, human interaction. i've never felt a hug before. not even a handshake or pat on the back, just this. it was warm and soothing, it made me gasp as she adjusted herself to make her more comfortable. it felt awesome, like i was in a movie or a book. now it's my turn. i gently rub my thumb across her cheek, i get halfway down before i don't see her anymore, or feel her. oh.

i feel a rush of sadness wave over what i just had. i think i was happy, or at least comfortable. she was gone, but her movement lingered on me. i still remembered how warm she felt, how i'd never felt anything like it. and it was calming. it made me shut my eyes. to remember it, i soon fall asleep..

such a cutie
he'd never been given a hug :(
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