misunderstood: mattheo riddle 🥀

2. HIM

mattheos pov:

they don't listen, it isn't like i've ever said one word since i've been in Hogwarts but they just don't listen. they call me murderer or psychopath but don't know who i am. everyone hates me yet they've never given me a chance.
it feels like shit.

when your quiet you hear everything, all the small talk or big gossip i know about it, and apparently there was a new student joining. a girl. and maybe it was my chance, to show who i really was, i've never killed or even tortured anyone in my life. but they just assumed i had relying on my last name... i wanted a chance. i needed THAT chance.

while on the train. i sit by myself, no one dare to go near me or speak. i sat down listening to my favourite chase Atlantic songs, a few students walk past my compartment quickly speaking about the new girl... her name was y/n y/l/n, and how she was beautiful and sweet, also the most kindest girl they'd ever met. she already sounds amazing. i wish i could be like her. amazing...

after i get off the train i sit down in the great hall. the first years all get sorted. most of them into griffindor, but then Dumbledore announces that we all have a new student. i was excited to see her, i mean she sounded lovely, i hoped i'd meet her before she meets the people who talk about me.but i doubt it, she'd probably never talk to me

"welcome Y/N Y/L/N"
the doors open and there she was.. my chance, and she was beautiful indeed, she looked quite nerdy. it was really cute. she was short and she had shiny mousy brown hair and an adorable smile, as she was walking towards the hat i was mesmerised. i'd never looked at anyone like that. i cant wait to meet her. before them

she sat on the stool and listened to the hat.
"HUFFLEPUFF" of course she was Hufflepuff, she looked like the sweetest girl. she sat down... with Cedric diggory. urgh. he was a dick, for a Hufflepuff he was horrible. i decided to listen to their conversation
"hi i'm cedric diggory nice to meet you"
some people shouted at him to shut up
"you too, why are they being so rude??" she smiled but it faded when her facial expression changed into confusion
"well, i'm probably the most hated guy in this school" WHAT? such a lie, i don't think you can top being a 'murderer' or 'psychopath' I am the most hated guy in hogwarts 100%, even though it was for no reason.. they were just assumptions

she told him that she would be his friend. wait yes, is that good? i think so, she's nice enough to give him a chance. i'm hoping she'll do the same for me.. the feast finishes and i go to my dorm, i don't share with anyone so that's good. i lay down thinking of what it would be like. to have a friend, someone to talk to and someone to enjoy life with. it's going to be great. someone who won't misunderstand me, i realise the time and find out i have potions in 5 minutes, great i'm gonna be late.

i change into my robes and scruff my hair so it's fluffy, i felt excited. i rush to potions with slug horn and open the door quickly, i don't say anything like usual, but i see her. omg she's looking at me. she's even more beautiful close up, i smile at her. for the first time in my life i smiled, she smiled back. i feel a ticklish feeling in my stomach. her smile was so adorable, just like her. Hermione brakes the stare by nudging y/n

"hey, hey y/n not him, he's a murderer and a psychopath, stay away from him" she wasn't smiling anymore. she looked concerned and scared, that made my smile drop. for merlins sake. she had to spoil it,
"why would they let a murderer in the school?" she whispers, quite loudly
"i have no clue" Hermione adds.
i sigh, it's lost. that excitement. lost. that happiness i could've had. lost. my chance... lost...

"MATTHEO RIDDLE your late! take a seat"
i sit behind them both, stuck in my own thoughts. drowning in them almost.
"MURDERER" i say nothing, like usual. clicking my pen away. not from the rude untrue comment, but from losing possible happiness. it was depressing.. the lesson went slowly, but i did get through. i rush back to my dorm. slamming my door and sliding down it from the inside, my face scrunches up trying to avoid tears. but it doesn't work..as tears rolled down my face i bury my head in my knees and pull at my hair. "WHY" i shout at myself, i mean how stupid could i have been, why would she talk to me? urgh

why does everything in my life go wrong. maybe i'm just not meant for it. i'm going to be stuck like this forever "fuck sake" i shout again.  i move to my bed filling my pillows with sorrow.i hit myself for being stupid and dumb.i wished things would get better for me.. even though they never will...

awww my baby 🥺🥺🥺
he's so cute lmaoaoaoao
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