Rewritten Histories

Is it a question of if Burr, or which one?

I fucking moaned his name, oh my god I moaned Johns's name. WHAT THE FUCK HAMILTON? GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. You just had your girlfriend fuck you up the ass, and then promptly as you finished you moaned your best friend's name. And now your girlfriend, your amazing, sweet, girlfriend, knows that you have a least some feelings for your best friend. This is not a normal situation that people get into. Maybe she didn't hear me. I look at Eliza's face, it's twisted in confusion and almost anger. Nope she heard it, she definitely heard it.

"I-" I start and immediately stop.

"It's okay Alexander, but I think we do need to talk about it." She says softly beginning to clean up and get redressed. I sit up and get dressed as well.

"I'm sorry," I say softly and she shakes her head.

"It's alright, come with me, I'll make tea." She says and I stand up, and with a slight limp walk into the kitchen and sit down, wincing at the sudden pain that shot through my hips and legs. She stands at the counter and begins preparing tea for us.

"So, how long have you known?" She asks and I chew my bottom lip softly.

"Known what?" I ask and she chuckles.

"Alex, dear, it's okay, you don't have to play coy with me. Yes I am a little upset that my boyfriend likes someone else. But we can't control how we feel and I'd rather you be in a relationship with someone that you really like. It does hurt but I'll get through it. I just want to see you happy, so how long have you known you like him?" She asks and my heart aches for her. How is she so understanding at all times?

"Honestly I'm not sure, a few weeks ago everything was so perfect, so monotonous. Nothing ever changed, we just lived our lives without anything new happening. At least I think so. It really felt that way, or at least that's how I remember it. Then after that one morning, you know, the one where Peggy wouldn't stop playing the Danny phantom theme? Everything felt different. New things started happening, my feelings began to get all scrambled, everything just felt so real, and suddenly it was John that I wanted." 

Suddenly a knowing look seems to cross her face. "I-I know what you mean. Something about the morning really did change everything. And now all my memories of before that morning seem foggy and distant. I thought it was just me. But, Alexander, do you want to be with John?" She asks sincerely coming to sit beside me with tea, and I sigh.

"I'm really sorry Eliza but yeah, I do," I say and Eliza shuts her eyes.

"It's alright Alex. However, do you have any idea how the school would react? We are the power couple of that school, we're pretty much the only thing keeping it together." She says jokingly and I smile. 

"You're honestly right though, and I'm not sure John would be okay with coming out to everyone, that's assuming he returns these feelings in the first place," I say and she smiles softly, clearly in pain but trying to be supportive. 

"We could always continue to fake it." She says and I widen my eyes.

"Hmm?" I ask and she stands up to put our dishes in the sink. 

"We could continue to act like we're dating at school, nothing big, just holding hands and stuff, just to keep people from noticing... and then you and John could be together without people knowing." She winces before saying the last part. 

"Eliza, you've already don't so much for me, wouldn't this hurt you more?" I ask and she shakes her head. 

"Honestly I think it would be good for me too, give me a chance to adapt to the change before people start asking what happened, you know?" She says and I nod.