Impossible Forces - clexa in high school

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Lexa's POV
I wake up to rustling in my bed and quickly get up to make sure Clarke's okay. She mumbles words that are almost inaudible but I can just barely make a few of them out. "..mom... no.. don't go... dad.. no one's left.." she mumbles as tears fall from her eyes and twitching. She's having a nightmare. I didn't want to have to wake her up. But I don't want the nightmare to continue.

I look at the time and see that it's 4 am. Almost instantly after reading the time I yawn, like it was some kind of trigger. I decide the best option is to wake Clarke. Gently shaking Clarke by her shoulders I whisper "Clarke... It's alright." She stirs awake, taking deep breaths and searching the room. When her eyes meet mine I give her a small reassuring smile. "It was just a nightmare." I tell her.

Clarke's POV
But it wasn't just a nightmare. It was all real, just playing over again in my head. I look down and realize I'm in Lexa's bed and I'm still in my bloody clothes. I cringe at the stains I made on the bed. "I'm sorry... you didn't have to-" I started but was cut off. "It's alright. I can change the sheets." Lexa said. I look into her eyes and see how tired she looks. "Oh my god.. you could've taken the bed.." I say, embarrassed at the situation. "Clarke it's fine. I wouldn't have been able to sleep anyway... If you want you can change.. I have extra pajamas. I would've done it but I thought.. you might've not liked that." Lexa says, insisting it was ok that I got the bed and made it all bloody. I thought about the offer and looked back down at my bloody clothes. "Here. You go change. I'll change the sheets." Lexa says handing me a pair of pajamas. I hesitate before taking them, nodding a thank you, and going off into the bathroom.
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When I get back to the room Lexa was sitting in the corner chair and smiled at me with tired eyes. I felt guilty for keeping her awake. "You can take the bed. You need sleep.. I can go to your brothers old room if you don't want me on the couch." I tell her, hoping she'll agree to that. She shakes her head no. "My friend Octavia is in there. I'm not letting you sleep on the couch Clarke, take the bed." Lexa tells me. I can tell she's not taking no for an answer so I try to make a deal. "Ok then, compromise... We can share the bed." I say walking over and laying on one side of the bed. Since it's against the wall I have to scoot so I'm on the side against the wall.

After getting settled I realize Lexa hasn't joined or answered so I looked over at her. "Are you sure..?" Lexa asks. "Yeah... I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to go back to sleep anyways." I assure her. Her gaze saddens a bit before she nods and climbs under the covers.

I stare at the ceiling above me, thinking, until I hear a voice. "Do you wanna talk about it?" Lexa asks. The tears the well in my eyes become more difficult to hold back. I take a short, sharp breath in as a few tears escape my eyes and run down my temples. I swallow, hoping my voice won't crack. "Not now." I whisper, not wanting to risk it. I can see her watching me from the corner of my eye. She nods and says "Whenever your ready." Her voice cracks a bit which causes me to look over to her. I can see her quickly wipe a tear away and can't help but ask "What's wrong?" She shakes her head before taking a breath. "Nothing." She says looking to the ceiling. "You just don't deserve all this pain." She whispers, not meeting my eyes.

I take a deep breath to build the confidence to do what I'm about to do. After letting it out I turn on my side and scoot towards her and wrap my arms around her waist. "Thank you..." I whisper with a shaky breath. "For being there after.. I.." I continue but I can't make the words come out. Lexa tenses at first but then wraps her arm around me. "You don't have to thank me... you deserve to be happy." She tells me. I cry onto Lexa's chest and she holds me tightly. We stay like this until we fall asleep.
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Lexa's POV
I wake up with hair in my face which I thought was mine but then I saw it was blonde. I panic for a second until I see Clarke still asleep on my chest and remember what happened last night. I smile sadly at her but then am startled by a voice in the corner of the room. "Good morning." Whispers a voice. I quickly turn my head to see Octavia giving me a smirk and then motioning to Clarke on my chest. I look back down at her and see that she's waking up because I jumped. She rubs her eyes sleepily and then blinks them a couple times before she looks into my eyes. I can't help but smile at her. She smiles back but then she spots Octavia in the corner and her smile fades and she moves off of me. I try not to be hurt because I know Clarke is shy but I can't help but be a bit disappointed.

"Clarke this is Octavia, my best friend since I was 8." I tell her, trying to make her more comfortable. "She can be an asshole at times but I guess she's alright." I try and lighten the mood with a joke. Octavia scoffs and says "Hey! I think you're the asshole in this relationship." While she looks at me with accusing eyes. "Anyways. I'm Octavia, it's nice to meet you." She continued, walking to stand next to the bed and sticking her hand out. Clarke stares at her hand before nervously going to shake it. "I called Octavia last night to pick us up... I didn't think you'd wanna stay in the woods." I told Clarke. She nods before finally building up the courage to say something. "Thank you..." she says quietly. "No problem. Anyways I came in here because you guys should get up, it's late. I don't know what time you're dad's supposed to be home but I don't think he wouldn't be happy if he found a girl in you're bed." Octavia said while walking back towards the door. My eyes widened and I felt my cheeks burn as I looked at Clarke. She was blushing and looking down at her hands.

When I finally pull my gaze from Clarke I look at the clock. 1:45. "Shit..." I whisper before hopping out of bed to get ready. It's Saturday so at least I don't have to worry about school. Octavia had left the room and shut the door and I could tell Clarke was more comfortable. "What's wrong...? Woah.." She asks me. I realize then that I had just started undressing in front of her. How stupid could I possibly be?! "Shoot sorry... I.. uh my dad will be home soon." I say, quickly putting a shirt on. Clarke had looked away but it didn't stop be from feeling stupid. "I should go change back to my clothes then." She said, standing up and trying her best to maneuver around while looking at the floor. I laugh at the sight. "I have a shirt on now. And no I'll give you some clothes. Those ones are.. messy." I tell her, not wanting to trigger anything. She looks up into my eyes again. I can see she's hurting but she's trying her best to hide it. "You've already done so much Lexa.. you don't have to-" she starts before I cut her off. "I want to, Clarke." I tell her, stepping closer with a smile. She gives me her best smile but I can tell she's fighting tears. "And I'm gonna have Octavia drive us to my car... Do you have plans today?" I hesitate before asking. She breaks our gaze and looks at the floor. "No.. How would I have plans..?" She mumbles. I didn't know what to say to that so I just handed her the clothes.

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Clarke's POV
I walk into the living room after changing into Lexa's clothes. I see Octavia on the couch and Lexa was no where to be seen. "Um... where's Lexa?" I ask before Octavia looks up from her phone. "I'm in here!" I hear her say before she peaks her head over the kitchen counter. I smile at that, then go to the kitchen.

I see Lexa washing a few dishes. "I don't know... if I'll be able to go home... I don't even know if I can call it home anymore." I whisper looking to the ground, too nervous that Octavia would hear. Lexa turned off the water and came towards me. She places her hands on my shoulders and I tense at the feeling but then calm dow a bit. I need to stop being so nervous! "It's okay, Clarke. You don't have to go until you feel comfortable. I was gonna talk to my father about you staying in Lincoln's old room, at least for a bit... I mean, if you want." Lexa says, getting a bit nervous at the end. I'm surprised by her offer and finally look up into her eyes. I was gonna speak before Lexa speaks again. "And if you say 'you don't have to' or 'I couldn't ask you to do that' I swear to god Clarke, I might slap you." She jokes. It makes me giggle before I say "I don't wanna cause any trouble. Octavia said he would freak out if..." I trail off not wanting to finish the sentence.

"As long as I ask him first and he knows that we're just friends it should be fine." Lexa assures me. My heart hurts a bit when she says 'just friends' and I'm not quite sure why.