The Love I Gave

Chapter 4

"I think we should take a break."

Zayn snaps back into reality and looks all around the room.

Did he say that?

No, he wouldn't have.

He locks eyes with Harry.

Oh.

Oh.

Harry said it. Harry wants a break.

Zayn's having a hard time processing everything that's happening right now because he knew this was getting too much for him but he had no idea Harry was feeling this way too.

Zayn's brought back to 2 weeks ago when he passed out right after their concert. Not enough sleep and not enough food and his poor body just couldn't take it anymore.

He thought he heard Harry say 'enough is enough' before he eventually drifted out of consciousness, but when he came too he blamed it on his foggy state of mind.

But maybe Harry did actually say it. Maybe someone else feels this pain in their hearts too.

Maybe he's not the only one who's drowning.

He feels selfish for not noticing the tiredness in Harry and the rest of the boys. He's been too caught up in his own problems that he completely forgot that there are four other guys living the same life as him.

They're probably just as tired, he thinks.

Nobody has said anything. The room is completely silent and Zayn can't read anyone's face. Which is odd because usually he's quite good at it. He's never been much of a talker but he listens. He's usually pretty good at figuring out what people are thinking without them having to say a word.

But everyone's faces are completely blank, the only emotion being shown is shock.

Which yah, Zayn's shocked too but he also feels this strange feeling swell up in his heart and it almost feels like he's a kid again waiting for his mom to come through the door and pick him up and tell him she loves him.

' Hope', he thinks.

This is hope.

Zayn holds his breath and hopes like he never has before in his life.

Because it's not him asking for the break it's Harry. Harry fucking Styles.

And Zayn can count on one hand how many times he's heard someone tell Harry no.

"What the bloody hell are you talking about?" And it's Louis and he seems angry.

Not like he's a mad angry more of a confused angry.

"I-'' Harry takes a shaky breath. "Look, we've been doing this for a long time and I'm not saying I want to end the band..."

"End the band?" And it's Niall. Niall who is being incredibly serious and Zayn starts to wish they weren't having this conversation at all.

"No. I don't want to end the band. I just think maybe we should take a break. A hiatus." Harry has this strong confidence in him when he says it. Like he's willing to fight for this. Zayn's taken back again because since when does Harry want to fight?

"Oh so what you can go do your solo shit?" Louis scoffs.

"Louis just calm down a minute. Harry why do you want to take a break?" And God bless Liam for being able to keep a level head during this.