Teens

13.

"It's okay, because we are friends. Hold my hand when you don't want to be with yourself. Scold me when you make a mistake. It's okay, because we are friends." -Me

Jungkook pov

I messed up. I messed everything up. The reason I avoided everyone including Tae, all went to vein. I screwed it up. My test, my friendship, my relationship, everything. I don't deserve anyone's love. Not my grandma, not Aami, Not Tae, no one.

After what Hobi said, I feel guilty for making Aami cry. Why did I do this? She never deserved me saying this to her. I regret every decision I made. I just brought pain for everyone.

Leaving Tae without even talking to him once, was I even a boyfriend? I didn't look at him. I didn't ask him how was he. I didn't listen to him. How much he needed me but I ignored him. I deserve this pain.

I blamed Aami for my stupidity. I accused her for nothing. I should have hugged and told her what was I going through. I should have trusted her. She is my friend. I ruined our friendship.

I don't want to meet anyone. It's been three days I didn't go to school.

I saw my rank didn't go up. Yoongi topped this time too. Jimin and Aami ranked 3rd and I am still 4th. I can't do anything. I suck at everything.

I was lying on the bed when I heard a knock on the door. I ordered chicken since I don't want to bother grandma.

I went to the door and opened it. I stood wide eyed when I saw my friends standing in front of me. They were smiling at me and showing the food bags they brought along with them.

"You ordered chicken? We brought more chicken for all of us." Aami giggled.

"You want us to stand here? Well, we are okay with it. Let's sit here everyone. I am hungry." Hobi was about to sit.

"I am tired. I need bed. Let us in." Yoongi whined.

"Grandpa." Jimin scoffed.

"Yaahh." Yoongi stood in fighting position which made everyone laugh.

I looked at them with tears in my eyes.

"We are coming in." Aami got inside and everyone followed her. "Hello, grandma. Mom sent this for you." She gave grandma a bag of fruits and side dishes.

"Aww. Thank you, dear. Jungkook, take then inside."

All of them came to my room. I sat on chair and they sat on my bed. I pulled my chair near the bed.

"Let's eat." Jimin started opening the bags and within two minutes, everyone attacked chicken.

I saw my friends laughing. They were teasing Jimin and Yoongi. They looked very precious. Tears started streaming down my face. All stopped laughing and saw me. No one said a word until I opened my mouth.

"I am sorry." I cried out.

Aami came to me and hugged me tightly.

"I am sorry for being such a useless friend." I continued. "I don't deserve you guys. I am very selfish. Even after all this, I still want you by my side." I couldn't stop crying.

We all stayed silent for a long time. Aami sat in front of me and held my hands all this time. Suddenly, everyone pulled me into a group hug.

"I am hungry. So, let's wrap this quickly. Aami start." As Hobi said this, Yoongi smacked his head. "What? Aren't you hungry?"

Yoongi cleared his throat. "I am but it's not the time, you idiot."

"Finish already, you guys." Jimin screamed.

"Let's take our part of chicken and leave." Yoongi suggested and the three boys left us alone.

"I guess, we really need to talk now." Aami started and I nodded. "Kookie, honestly, I was hurt. You said very hurtful, disrespectful, friendship breaking words. You made me cry and I wanted to slap you very hard when you doubted MY FRIENDSHIP towards you boys. I was very angry. But not only because of what you said, also because you didn't consider the thought of sharing your issues with us. I-I know, you didn't mean anything you said. And I am sorry I made you feel all those things. Trust me, we never pitied you or judged you." I felt so embarrassed. How did I doubt her? She is the purest soul that exists in the universe.

I cried. She took me into her embrace. "I am sorry, Aami."

"You must be. I am not building an army. I am the army. A strong one." She said proudly and I nodded laughing.

"Yeah. You are." We both turned towards the door and saw three boys peaking inside.

"You were eavesdropping?" Aami asked raising her hands.

"I told you not to." Yoongi scolded Hobi and looked at us. "It was his idea." He pointed at Hobi.

"Who was the one who said we deserve to know what's going inside?" Hobi scoffed.

"It was Jimin." Yoongi blurted out.

"Shut up, you guys. Sorry. We were just curious." Jimin rubbed the back of his neck and they entered the room.

"I am sorry, guys. Thank you." I looked down.

"It's okay. Everyone goes through a phase where they grow." Jimin tried to sound mature.

"It seems like you still didn't go through that phase." Yoongi smacked Jimin's head and we all laughed.

"Hey! You are not tall either."

"I am, more than you."

"Okay. Okay. Now, I am hungry." Aami said and sat to eat.

While eating I was hesitating to ask a question. Aami sensed it. "Spill."

"How is um..um T-Tae?" Aami and all straightened their backs and looked at each other. I didn't understand what was going on in their minds.

"I think, you should ask him yourself." Hobi suggested.

"But remember, he has gone through a lot and he needed you the most. Idiot that you are, you weren't there for him. So, it will take time to convince him." Jimin told me.

"Do I even deserve him?" I put my head down. Aami raised it by putting her finger under my chin.

"Trust me. You both need each other. Just don't waste time anymore." Aami smiled and I nodded.

"I kept everyone away, so, I could get good score and I failed even there. I didn't work hard enough in my relationship nor studies." I told everyone.

"I saw you working day and night for test. Don't doubt your efforts, Kookie. I know you'll find a way. Talk to Han teacher once." Aami suggested.

I nodded. I really need to make everything right. I am sorry, Tae that I wasn't with you but I promise I will make it right.

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I'll cry... Aami is heart! 💜💜 The strongest Army!!!