Teens

14.

Jungkook pov

On Sunday, I went to Kims. When I entered their house, Mrs. Kim welcomed me.

"Hello, Mrs. Kim." I greeted.

"Wait, I'll call Tae. He is lying on the bed since yesterday. Good that you came. He'll get some air." She was about to call Tae when I stopped her.

"No, no. I came to talk to Jin hyung. Please don't let Taehyung know I am here." She knitted her eyebrows but told me where hyung is. I went to his room and knocked.

"Come." He permitted.

"Jin hyung." I popped my head inside and then entered completely. He looked at me and smiled widely.

"Kook-" his smile faded as if he remembered something. "Why are you here?"

"Hyung, I am sorry. I know you guys are angry and I am really embarrassed about my behavior." I went to him and he told me to sit on the chair in front of his desk.

"You are like my baby that is the only reason I am letting you explain your side of the story. I am really disappointed in you." Jin hyung pointed his finger at me and guilt filled inside my heart.

I told him everything that happened. I kept my head down when I told everything that I did to Aami.

"I suspected about her and Tae and said all this." I closed my eyes in embarrassment.

"What?!"

"I am sorry, hyung. I really messed it up."

"You really did. That is why Aami was sounding low. I can't forgive you for making Aami cry!"

"I-I"

"So, what do you want from me now?"

"I need to fix everything up. Aami and others forgave me already but I want to apologize to Tae. I was confused about my feelings towards him but now I know. I really love him and want him to know. I just don't know what happened to him. I heard nothing and others told me nothing."

"I don't know whether I should be the one to tell you or not."

"Hyung, if I ask him, he'll not answer. I need to know." I pleaded.

Jin hyung told me about Tae's stalker. I placed my hand on my mouth and widened my eyes. Tears fell off my eyes. I don't deserve him. I can't make anything right. Whole world is turning upside down right now. I cried harder. Very harder.

Hyung came and hugged me but I don't deserve this. I don't. I am very selfish, useless and cruel guy. How did I think I can bring us back to normal?

"Jungkook?" hyung kept calling for me but I left the room and their house. I can't face him. I should never show my face to him. The only thing that I deserve is hate. Only hate.

"Jungkook! Stop!" Jin hyung came running after me and held my hand. I didn't look at him. How can I? "Jungkook, don't mess this up now! He wants you. Go to him. Trust me, he doesn't hate you. He is waiting for you. Tae won't agree but I saw him staring at phone, waiting for your message. Please, pull yourself together and go to him."

He is right, Maybe if I go now, it won't be too late for apologizing. I didn't waste time and ran into the house and then to his room. I didn't knock, just opened the door and saw him lying on the bed, rolled inside the blanket. I closed the door.

"T-Tae-" he quickly sat up with wide eyes. He was wearing a black T-shirt and white shorts. I looked down on the floor, not daring to look at him.

"Jun-Jungkook? Why are you here? We have nothing to speak. Leave." He seemed disappointed.

"I am s-sorry." I released a sob. He came to me and raised my head with his index under my chin.

"Why are you crying?" he sounded concerned. I cried harder and sat on the floor. He slid down with me.

"I am sorry, Tae." I cried harder only if that's humanly possible. I guess, this gave him a hint.

"W-Who told you?"

"Hyung." I had my head down. "I-I asked h-him."

"You came to me because of that?" he removed his hands away from me.

"No, Tae. I came to apologize you but I went to Jin hyung." I finally looked at him. He was still beautiful with tears in his eyes and dark circles under them. "I am sorry, Tae. I don't deserve you. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve any of you."

"K-Kookie." He started crying.

"I am very selfish. You don't need a boyfriend like me. I hate myself. I've always been in receiving end. I could never give you what you deserve. Please hate me. It is all my fault."

"I can't. I can't hate you. Never. It wasn't your fault. Don't blame yourself. I know what you've been through." I was shocked when I heard the last statement. He knew? How? I looked at him.

"How?" I whispered.

"When we broke up, I went to the café. I didn't find you there. Someone told me that you were fired."

"I really am an idiot. I didn't even bother to ask you about you but...You went to see me there."

"You weren't in a state of mind to listen, Kookie. Honestly, I was hurt. I was hurt about you not caring for me but I was more hurt about you not telling me what happened. What did you take me for, Kookie? I was your boyfriend. I would have listened you. Why didn't you share about your issues?"

"Because I thought all of you pity me. I could see anybody doing that but you guys."

"We never judged you, Kookie." When he said this, I nodded my head.

"I know. I felt that I was using you. I wasn't sure about my feelings. I thought it will be better if I keep everyone away and focus on me. I ruined everything. My friendship, my relationship."

"You never used me. I wanted you to use me but you always hid your problems."

"Tae" I looked into his eyes. I made both of us stand. I placed my hand on his waist and pulled him closer.

Our foreheads were on each other. "I am sorry, I wasn't there when you needed." I whispered.

"I am sorry too. I wasn't there when you needed either." He whispered.

"I love you." I leaned in and connected our lips. It was the first time I said this sentence to someone.

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