ithink I still have feelings ♡︎

ihave the worst night ever

Freddie and me had just agreed we'd break up. I- I couldn't. I can't. We agreed it was mutual, but it really wasn't. I can't believe that just happened. I walked out of the elevator and heard Freddies soft voice say, "I love you." I waited a minute, holding back tears and said, "I love you too." Me and Freddie kissed one last time and both went our separate ways.

When I got home mascara was running down my face, my eyes were red and Callie came up to me and said, "have you been crying?!" I screamed, "leave me alone!" And I ran upstairs to my room crying. I cried and cried. Freddie was my everything. I loved him more than anything, even food. I thought about texting Freddie about how I felt, but instead I changed his name in my phone to ~Freddie 💔~  There were so many times I almost texted him. I couldn't face him right now. My heart is in a million pieces. It's like he smashed it with a hammer. I ended up crying myself to sleep that night.

~The Next Day~

I have school today and iCarly tonight. Both times I have to see Freddie. I can't face him, it hurts to be anywhere near him. I got to school and saw him. Then Carly came up to him and happily said, "hi angel" and she... She kissed Freddie! My heart dropped, the tears started coming down my face. My own best friend kissed my ex. She's dating my ex. I ran into the bathroom and cried. MY OWN BEST FRIEND IS DATING MY EX. THE PERSON I STILL LOVE. I can't believe out of anyone, my own best friend would do that to me. My life keeps getting worse and worse.