transboo

Chapter 1

tw: dysphoria

guys ranboo is not actually trans i am just using his character for my story <3

ranboo pov:

today i had to do a facecam stream, the viewers had hit the sub goal so i had to keep my promise.

there's a reason i hide my face and avoid facecam. and that was simply because i was transgender. i didn't want the viewers to see me as a girl so i hid myself from them.

the outfit i decided on was safe? i think? i obviously wore my binder and then a white t-shirt with a hawaiian shirt over the top. i then put on my trademark mask, sunglasses and gloves and was ready to go.

the stream was all good to begin with, i was building my minecraft lego end set and speaking to a few of my friends on stream. i was very impressed with how well i was doing until it all came crashing down. i got a couple of donos telling me i dressed like a lesbian and that sent my head spinning into panic. i hoped the panic didn't show through my body language and my voice but my head wouldn't shut up.

do they know you're a girl?

did we not hide it well enough?

oh they're all going to hate you now.

i tried to block out the voices going mad in my head and concentrated on finishing the lego and then ending the stream. i couldn't stream in this state but i also couldn't just end abruptly right now.

i ended stream as soon as i could and immediately just starting packing all my stuff away and sitting in front of my mirror, my thoughts whirring with no hint that they would calm down any time soon. i stared at my reflection, despising what i saw, wishing i could've been born in a mans body.

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reminder: you are beautiful, you are loved, you are valid! please get yourself some food and a glass of water, you deserve it <3