Crazy Over Lisa

The Move

Jisoo

When we get home, the energy is very heavy. Through the door, I can see Lisa keeping her head down. I've never seen her like this before.

This feels like her breaking point and I'm not sure how I can help right now.

I lock our apartment door and take off my shoes. I hear Lisa plop down on the couch. Not a single word from her, and not even a greeting to the kitties.

"Babe... please tell me what you need." I say, slowly walking to her.

Her hands are over her eyes and I can tell she's trying to hold back more tears. Would telling her a move to the United States make her feel better? Or worse?

"All of these people...are so disgusting..." She says, her words are so quiet.

I sit down on the edge of a couch cushion near her hip.

"I know you're not okay," I reach to grab her closest hand and hold it. Her fingertips are so cold. "But it's okay to tell me how you're feeling, too."

She looks at me, and my heart breaks again. Her big brown eyes are a scary shade of red and puffy... and so very sad.

"I don't know what I'd do without you, Jisoo," she cracks a smirk, then sings the same lyrics from our Blackpink song before continuing, "...I'm so sorry."

"Why are you apologizing to me?"

"I'm sorry you have to deal with me."

Shattered. Is the right word for how my heart feels now. In the two years of us dating, it's never felt like this. For all of the time in our careers, we tried so hard not surrendering to the pressure of the people who hated us. It worked for a long time, but this is on a whole different level. Lisa is always the one reminding me, and even the other members, to never let anyone get in our heads. But now, she's the one drowning.

"I wouldn't want to deal with anybody else," I say. She cracks another smirk. "Can I tell you something?"

Me telling her about the move is now or never.

She does a small nod and continues to look at me.

"I've been thinking about this for a while... how do you feel about moving to the United States?" I watch her listen to my question and wait. My heart beats faster in anticipation.

Her eyebrows furrow in thought. After a long moment of silence, she speaks. "What about our families?"

"I can't make them move with us, but we could always make a trip to see them if we wanted to."

Her eyebrows furrow again, "Why would we move?"

I let out a sigh, "I had a meeting today with Dior. They want to renew my contract, but they have a corporate location in the US that would make it easier for them to contact me. Lisa, I'm saying this way we can still make money. And maybe, you'll feel better over there because it's different people. You said it yourself—the US fans love us. They'd be way more accepting of us than people here in Korea."

I wait again for her reaction. I see her blink a few times, staring down towards our hands which are still held together.

"I really don't want to feel like this anymore," she says, "but I think I need time before saying yes or no."

Her response was better than I expected. I thought she'd just get upset.

"Okay, babe. Take your time."

Lisa smiles up at me. She sits up on the couch now, and our faces are inches apart. I can see the redness under her eyes in detail and it makes me pout. My poor baby.

I reach up to hold the side of her face. She leans in to close the space and I feel our lips come together in the softest way. This kiss feels different—like there's a touch of hope. It's been a while since that feeling.

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Later that night

"Babe...wake up..."

There's a hand shaking my shoulder. My eyes are so heavy but my sleep gets disturbed.

"Eurrghh... what is it Lisa?"

"I've made my decision."

Even almost asleep, I'm caught off guard. She sure did take no time at all. I'm actually not surprised though. That's how she's been since I've known her.

"...And that is?" My back is turned to her still, I haven't moved from my spot. I'm so tired...

"Let's move to the United States."

My eyes open half way and I slowly turn the other direction to face her. I manage to look at her, she's sitting up and meets my vision. The moonlight is hitting her skin in the perfect shade of cool blue.

"You want to do it?" I ask.

She nods at me, "I couldn't sleep. Everything you said earlier kept playing in my head. I didn't think I'd feel excited about it, but I actually am."

"I'm happy you can feel excited for it..." I smile at her, "But can we talk about this in the morning?"

"Of course, my love. I just wanted to let you know."

"Thank you, baby..." I yawn and as I close my mouth again, I feel Lisa's lips right on mine. I let out a giggle because I almost burped at the same time. "Babo!" I whisper.

"Yeah, but I'm your babo!" I can feel her body slide down in the sheets right next to me.

I turn the other direction where I'm comfortable again. Lisa's arm snakes under my elbow and pulls my body in tighter against her. My favorite.

"Jichu, I love you." She whispers.

I whisper back, "Lili, I love you too."

My eyes get even heavier and I fade into a deep sleep.

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