The name is Ricky

Chapter 10

Ricky's pov.
After spending a night in jail and having to explain everything, even having to convince them that I'm clean now, they let me go. I only got a warning but next time I would have to go to jail for 2 years.
As I walk back home I think about Dan. he was seriously good at acting last night. I have to thank him for that tho. I make up my mind and walk to Dan's flat first. I'm sure Simon will be waiting on my doorstep and I don't want to see him yet. I walk to Dan's flat building and take the elevator up to his floor. As I knock on his door I see him walking trough the hallway. He opens the door and looks up at me. "Are you alright?" Is the first thing he says. "Yeah. I'm fine. Thank you for saving my ass last night." I say and look down. This is so awkward. "Come in. And why aren't you at home right now? You look like you could use some sleep." Dan says and I nod. "I'm afraid my ex-bandmates will be waiting for me at home and I don't want to face them right now." I say and I feel my cheeks getting red. I follow Dan to the livingroom and sit down on the couch. "You want some tea?" Dan asks me and I nod. I'm actually really thirsty and hungry, but I don't say anything. I don't want to be a burden. Dan comes back with the tea and I take it from him. "Thank you." I say and he smiles. There is a knock on the door and Dan goes to open it. "Is Ricky here?" I hear Simon say and I jump up and sit in a corner so that he can't see me. "No, why would he be here?" Dan asks him. "We know that the police released him but he isn't home and we thought that he might be here." It's peanut saying that this time. "Well, he isn't here. Have a nice day." Dan says and he closes the door. He walks back and looks aroud for me. As he notices me sitting in the corner he comes towards me and I move away from him. I don't know why I do it, but it happens anyways. "Come on Ricky, you can trust me." Dan says and he sits on the ground a few metres away from me. He stretces his arm and I press myself further into the corner. "It's alright. It's just anxiety and used to being alone all the time." Dan says and he describes exactly how I feel. And I don't even know it myself. I notice my cheeks getting wet and I realise that I'm crying. Dan slowly moves closer and wraps an arm around me. "Shhh. It's alright." he says and I lean against him. It has been a long time since someone has held me and I realise that I was really lonely. As I stop crying I look up at Dan. "Thank you." I say quietly, my voice almost gone and hurting from crying. "It's alright." Dan says and I look down again. "Let's move to the couch, I'll get a blanket for you and maybe you'll be able to get some sleep." Dan says and he helps me up. I move to the couch and curl up in a ball. "Here you go." Dan says and he places a blanket over me. "Thank you." I say, close my eyes and I fall into a deep slumber.

I wake up to a loud sound. I slowly open my eyes and look around. I don't recognise where I am and start to panic. I sit up and wrap the blanket tighter around me. Dan walks in and I relax as I remember where I am. "Sorry for waking you. I accidently dropped a pan and it made a lot of noise. Did you sleep well?" He says. "Yeah. I'm alright." I say and my voice is shit again. "Hmm. Maybe you should rest your voice for a few days and it might be better?" Dan says and I shake my head. "That won't work." I say and he gives me a questioning look. "Do you want to tell what happened?" Dan asks and I again shake my head. "Alright. I won't force you to tell your story but if you ever want to talk about it you can talk to me." Dan says and I nod. "And Oh yeah, Ralph is coming for dinner. I hope you won't mind." "Neah. It's alright." I say and make a mental note to be gone before dinner. "I should go home." I say after a while. "Are you alright? Do I have to walk with you?" Dan asks and I'm seriously becoming tired of all his questions. "No. They will be gone by now." I say and stand up. "Bye." I say and walk to the door. "Bye! Remember that you're always welcome here. And I almost forgot, you have work tomorrow." Dan says and I walk out. I walk towards the elevator and when I walk out of the building I take a back alley route to my house. As I reach my house I see a light on in the kitchen and Simon's shadow. I turn around and run back to Dan's place. But I also don't want to go there. I want to be alone. I can go to the nearby park and go back home later. As I walk to the park I think about moving. As long as I don't let Simon know where I would be going I could live a silent life. No Simon or one of the other guys knocking on my door all the time. I would finally be able to live my life like I wanted. As I walked into the park I had an idea. I would just sleep on a bench. No one would notice me there and I could be alone. It was still summer so the nights were warm enough. I see a bench and walk to it. It doesn't look really comfy but it should be enough for tonight. I lay down on it and I soon fall asleep.