Fallen bird

Saved

I wake up few minutes after Wanda left my head. I was lying on bed, dad was sitting next to me and Wanda was staying by the window. I sat down.

"Alice"

Dad hugged me

"Everything okay?"

I slowly nod

"Yeah, my head just hurt a little, but I'm okay."

I pulled away from him

"I'm going help Loki now"

"Alice..."

He looked on me. He seems worried. He take my hands to his. It was strange, but I didn't feel it... but I didn't give it attention.

"Alice, do you ever care for yourself?"

I looked into his eyes.

"No. Because I can't loose people I care about. I CAN'T let them die, when I can help them. So please, let me go"

"Alice...."

"LET ME GO"

A stream of powers come out of my hands. Dad stand up of my bed. I saw, that he is scared, but he tried to hide it. 

"I'm sorry... I didn't...."

I looked on Wanda. She has worry in her eyes.  

"I'm sorry...."

I run out from my room and lock myself in the bathroom. I sit down on the floor and start crying. I can't control it.... I never could. I really thought that I could ever control it? I was so naive..... I just hurting everyone.... just look on Loki....
Loki.... I need to help him.... 
I stand up and come out of bathroom. I pass by Wanda and dad, ignoring them. 
I run to Bruce's lab to Loki, shout the door and lock them with my powers, so no one could get inside.

"Alice! Open the door!"

That was Natasha.... I ignored her.

"ALICE!"

I'm still ignoring her. I bent over Loki, kiss him on his forehead and said:

"You will be okay now Loki"

I put my hands on his chest. I close my eyes and concetrate my healing powers. I slowly start healing him. I felt how my energy slowly start leaving my body. I open eyes and stop for a second. Than I put my hands on Loki's forehead and look into his mind. He need just a little more....
I feel really weak, I can just hardly stand. I put my hands back on his chest and continue. I don't care if something happen to me, I need Loki back. Because I don't want fall into it again...
really no. 
You now maybe wonder: "Into what she could fall again?" Well... I won't tell you it. For now. Because for now it's not important. 

"Alice?"

I opened my eyes. 

"L-Loki?"

He wake up. I saved him. He is okay..... I felt strong pain near heart. Shit.... My destructive powers.... I'm too weak to resist them now....
I decide to rest a little. Loki is safe, so I can sleep for few minutes......
No... That's not my mind... no... I need to resist them... I HAVE to. Because if I not, they will take control of me. But they are too strong....

"G-get W-wanda..."

That was all I could say. Than I pass out