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one step at a time

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by Jamsinuse

by Jamsinuse

{tw: mentions of suicide}

It didn't hurt when he said those things.

He didn't mean it.

He didn't.

Did he?

Does he really hate me that much?

Is that really how he thought about me?

Am i really the spoiled brat that he thinks i am?

Did he ever really consider me as a friend?

What happened to all those moments of fun we made together?

What happened to the bond that we shared together?

Am i really that annoying?

Am i really that useless?

Am i that forgettable to forget all about the memories we made?

Am i....

really that unlovable?

I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.I hate him.

I hate him.

Do i?

Maybe if i had spent a little more time with him.

Make more happy memories.

If only i had cared a little more about first impressions.

If only i had treated him differently.

If only i was not me.

Why.

Why did he leave me?

I need him to live.

He makes me happy.

If I'm not with him then what is the point of this. Of me?

Why am i still here?

Do i even deserve to be here?

Did i even deserve to be friends with him in the first place?

Why?

Why did we even meet in the first place?

Why did he even continue to be friends with me if that's how he feels?

I hate this.

I hate myself.

I'm the reason he left.

So, if i were to kill myself, will he be happy?

Clearly he didn't care enough so killing myself won't be a big deal.

He doesn't care.

No one cares.

I don't care if i die.

Maybe, killing myself is the way to go.

The lives of others will be much better off without me in it.

No one cares anyway.

No one cares if i die.

He won't care if i die.

No one will care.

This is stupid...

Why do i want to kill myself over a breakup?

Something so trivial and this is how i react?

This is stupid.

I'm stupid.

Why didn't i realize earlier?

If he doesn't want to deal with me, even after we've been through so much, then his loss.

I am stupid crying over him.

He's not worth my tears.

I could just replace him with someone who is better than him.

But it won't be that easy trusting someone again.

One step at a time.