Running From You - Tom Hiddleston Fan Fiction

Nightmares

"Tom please talk to me" he looked so scared.
"I... I can't" a tear trickled down his cheek.
"Please talk to me. I want to help"
"I don't want you to have to relive that night" I took his face in my hands and kissed his tears away.
"The therapist said we need to talk about it. You lived it too and you've helped me so much, please"

I was feeling so guilty, the sex had soothed me, but had seemed to trigger something in Tom.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have pushed you into sex" a tear betrayed my guilty feeling.
"What?" He looked slightly annoyed that I said it.
"Well, last night was the first time I haven't had a nightmare and I needed to feel you... To clear my head... You know? And now it's had the opposite affect on you, I'm sorry" I started crying and he pulled me into a hug and kissed my head.

"You've got nothing to be sorry for, please don't cry darling" he hugged me tighter.
"Truth be told... I... I was having nightmares in the hospital. The nurse had to come and wake me as I was screaming in my sleep... I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I didn't want you to have someone else to worry about" he sniffed, "I'm supposed to be the strong one"

I took his face in my hands and kissed him. I wanted to kiss all the fear and darkness away. I pulled back and looked into his blue eyes, they'd lost some of their sparkle.

"Well, I'll start first" I hadn't really gone into any details after Natalie had died, I didn't want to tell him what I did even though I thought it was the best thing in the moment to do, I still felt liked I'd cheated on him.

I took a deep breath and just told him everything.

"Ummm... After Natalie had died and he'd dragged her away into the bedroom, he came back and...and he slapped me, I fell back on to the sofa and he was on me, kissing me. I told him to stop but he just wouldn't" the next part I was dreading telling Tom. He squeezed my hand and nodded for me to continue.

"Well I had a thought, there was a lamp on the table next to the sofa but I couldn't reach it. I had to get him to move so I could... So I... I lied and told him I loved him." I looked at Tom terrified of his reaction but he just smiled slightly and nodded.
"Ok... What happened next?"

I took another deep breath...
"I took my top off and told him.." I let out a sigh... "I told him I'd take care of him and then managed to get him off me, he cut the ties around my ankles and... And I seduced him so I could reach the lamp. I didn't put anything... Ummm in anywhere except my boobs in his face so I could reach the lamp." I blurted the last part out so fast and I had to take a deep breath after.

Tom just gave a small smile and squeezed my hand.

"I got hold of the lamp, smashed it over his head and ran... I didn't realize I didn't have shoes on until I got behind another caravan and looked to see him following the blood from my cut feet"

I paused looking at Tom... I wanted to keep talking but I didn't know if this next part was going to upset him.

"I ran and tripped... I hit my face on some concrete and... And I tried to run, I felt so dizzy. Then... Then he caught me and... I thought he was going to kill me" I started sobbing.

"It's ok...shhh... You don't need to say anymore my love... I know what happened next" he looked away so sad.

"If only I'd gotten to you sooner" he started crying again.

"It's ok" I wanted to hold him, but he stood up and walked away.

I felt so cold all of a sudden without his warmth next to me and wrapped the duvet around myself.

I stood up and went over to him whilst he was looking out of the gap between the curtains.

"I'm so sorry Becca. I should have never let you leave the park. I felt so guilty even before any of this that I just let you leave... I didn't fight for you"

He took a deep breath turned and looked at me, then tucked a stray piece of hair behind my ear. His eyes were so loving, so gentle, I just wanted to get lost in them.

"When I saw what Dave was doing to you... I... I just lost it... I've never felt that much anger before... Something just took over in me and I wanted to kill him... Literally kill him... It frightens me that I can feel like that"

I wrapped him in the duvet and clung to his chest.

"I love you Tom... I was so scared I'd never see you or the kids again."

He lent down and kissed the top of my head, then continued talking.

"When he had that knife to your throat, I saw everything flash before me. Everything was suddenly so clear... I just wanted to be with you and I'd do whatever I could to protect you. You and the kids are all I care about."

I turned to him and took his face in my hands so our foreheads were touching.

"I'm ashamed to say it, but... But when he killed himself... I was glad he did... If he hadn't I.." he trailed off.

"Shhh it's ok. You don't need to feel ashamed about that. I'm kind of glad he did to... Not that I don't want the kids to have their dad around, but not the person he turned into"

I leaned up and our lips met... Tom deepened the kiss like he needed to know I was still here.

It felt like we were kissing for a good few hours, just needing to find peace with eachother, when I broke away first to come up for air.

"Ummm... I've decided"
"Decided what?"
"That we will come to Georgia with you" the smile that spread across his face made my heart flutter, "but... I would like to meet the tutor before they start teaching Olivia and Archie"
He nodded and couldn't stop smiling...