Relearning How To Love (Eremika)

Chapter 4

The group agreed to give Eren some alone time to figure things out with himself while they discusses about who would sleep with who. "So I'm taking Historia and there is nothing you can do about it. But there are only 3 boys. Armin, Connie and Eren. One would have to sleep with a girl but that wouldn't be fair. Soo..." Ymir said with a mischievous grin. "So what?" Annie asked. "None of you are allowed to sleep with the same gender. Decide who your roommates will be yourselves."

Everyone in the group turned red, except for Ymir and Historia. They were smiling to each other with looks so evil that the devil would have been scared.

"It's also obvious that Eren would want Mikasa if he were here, so one couple is decided." Historia said with the same evil look making Mikasa's whole face turn red. "What? I-I uhmm... Y-You got it w-wrong" Mikasa said panicking while chopping the air with her hands in embarrassment. " "Cut the crap Mikasa, it's obvious the two of you like each other." Before she had time to reply, Connie had asked Sasha to be roommates, to which she accepted, both of them being red, and then Armin walked towards Annie. "H-Hey, I thought w-we could maybe..." "It's not like there is anyone else left, so yes." Annie cut him off. "Yea right." Armin said while turning a bit sad. Annie noticed this. "B-but I would have s-still said y-yes." She spoke looking away blushing. Armin's mood immediately changed after what she said and he was now smiling.

"Guys I think I'm going to look for Eren, it's been a while and he hasn't came back yet." The group nodded and mikasa walked towards the direction she saw him leaving. She walked around a bit, trying to find him, but when she did, her eyes widened and a look of terror was seen in her face.

"Eren! Why are you cutting yourself?! Stop this!" She said running towards him. His eyes widened and he turned his gaze up to her, pulling the razor away from his skin, while he winced in pain. His eyes we're full of tears and he was shocked. "Mikasa... You... Shouldn't be here." He said while willing his tears, and trying to desperately hide his hand from her. "And you shouldn't be hurting yourself! Why are you doing this?!" She soutted and crouched in front of him. She took his hurt arm behind his back and stared at it. She looked scared, but also hurt. It hurted her to see him like this.

"Just leave, please. I don't want you here." He said, but he knew that was a lie. "I don't get along with myself...I'm at war with myself...I hate me for being myself... This is just how I cope..."

"Eren nothing good can come out of this! There are people who care about you... I care about you! Stop harming yourself and we can figure things out! Please..." The ebony girl said in the bring of tears. "Why?" Eren said while tear fled from his eyes once more. "Why are you so nice to me? Why do you care about me? Why are you giving me hope that this life may not be that bad? Why!? So you can bring my hopes up and then crash me down harder again?" He said mentally breaking down. "Why are you giving me hope?"

Mikasa wrapped her arms around his head, knowing he needed comfort. She wiped his tears and brought him into a hug. "It really isn't so bad, Eren. I'm not trying to crash you down. You are getting through this, and I will do all I can to help you. I will be by your side. WE, are going to get through this, Eren." She said. Eren hugged her back tightly, and whispered. "Thank you."

They pulled back and Eren willed his tears. He pulled out some bandages from his backpack, and wrap his arm, although poorly. Seeing this, Mikasa let out a giggle, before helping him with it. "Now let's go back to the others. What do you say, Eren?" He slightly nodded and they got on their way back.

Upon arriving, everyone seemed to be asleep in their tends, since they could hear snoring. "Oh right... Uhm... They left the two of us to sleep in the same tend. Is that okay?" She said with a pink blush on her cheeks. "Yeah. I'd chose you over anyone else anyways, so I guess it's fine." Eren said also having a small blush.

Eren got in the tend while Mikasa froze and eternally panicked after what the boy told her. 'Why does this feel so different?' She thought 'Could the guys be right? Do I really like Eren? Or am I just weird?' She put her hand or her chest and realized how fast her heart was beating. She smiled at the realization 'Maybe... Just maybe.'

"Aren't you coming?" Eren spoke snapping her out of her thought process. "Yeah, sorry. I'm coming."

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The two lied down on their tends. An awkward silence filled the place until Mikasa broke it. "I'm not sleepy. What about you?" "I'm not either. Maybe we could talk about things until we fall asleep." The boy said. "Like what?" "I dunno... You got any hobbies?" "Oh uhm... I like singing. My brother says I'm pretty good but since he is my brother it doesn't really count." "I'm sure you'd be great. You do have a nice voice after all." Even said looking in her eyes. Mikasa looked away shyly. "You think so? Well what about you? What are your hobbies?"

"I like basketball, and I used to like music too. I know how to play the guitar and I used to sing as well." "Then why'd you stop?" The girl asked looking back up to his eyes. "It reminds me to much of my parents and my past so... I just stopped."

"Would you sing for me sometime?" Mikasa asked blushing. "For you... Maybe I would." He said. Mikasa jumped for joy on the inside but didn't show it too much. "Sleepy yet?" The brunette asked. "Kind of. Guess I need some sleep. Goodnight Eren." "Sweat dreams, Mikasa. And thank you." Her eyes we're closed but she smiled at his last comment.

Both of them soon fell asleep...