It's been a long long time (Pain and Pleasure Sequel)

The Meeting

"Mommy! Mommy! We're gonna see uncle Steve!?" Becca shouted from the back of the car as you pulled up to the compound.

"That's right sweetheart, everyone else will be there too." Becca cheered and Bucky smiled over at you. Despite having being away from the Avengers you all kept pretty close contact. Pepper, Nat and Wanda were there for you during the pregnancy and the guys we're there for Bucky so you both weren't on your own.

Stopping the car at the doors Steve and Nat were waiting at the door for your arrival. You unbuckled Becca from her seat but she had already half way out the car ready to jump at Nat.

"Auntie Natasha!" Becca took a particular interest in Natasha much to her surprise and she treated Rebecca like she was her own, in fact you recall the first time Nat held Rebecca she was holding back tears and it was enough to make her Rebecca's God mother.

"Hey kid, good to see you. How about we go find Morgan hmm?" she takes becca by the hand. "I'll meet you guys up there." Natasha leads your daughter away while you are left with Steve.

"We have a mission due soon, Fury is giving us a whole presentation about it and then hopefully we'll be told who goes and when." Steve mentions, he seem so please about it. Not.

"Oh the joys of being an Avenger." Bucky pats Steve on the back and the pair walk in as you follow behind. Hearing that there will be any mission at all makes you uneasy, you were still Tony's technician which means if you went on a mission you would most likely just be chilling in the Quinjet but that meant leaving Rebecca for a while and you hardly been away from her for a day. Of course that was a normal thing to feel but mothers felt that when their kids go to nursery or school not life threatening missions.

"Y/n, honey? Everything okay?" your husband's voice pulld you back into reality again, you smile and shake off his question everything is always fine.
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The meeting seemed to go on and on though you got the gist of it, just a bunch of bad people who got their hands on some illegal bioweapons probably selling them. You prayed that you or Bucky wouldn't have to go on the mission you cant leave becca alone what if something happens? You felt Bucky take a hold of your hand an give it a reassuring squeeze but it hardly did anything to ease your mind.

"Y/n. You seem uneasy what's the problem." Fury looked at you, you took a deep breath and dismissed the question. "Then I guess you'll have no issues going on this mission."

"Wait what? Fury I cant." You stand up, now everyones eyes on you.

"And why not?"

"Rebecca will be left alone! She hasn't been without on of her parents let alone both!" your voice was getting louder. "She needs one of us."

"Honey calm down, everything be fine." Bucky places his hands on your shoulders to calm you down.

"But what if it's not?"

"Y/n, I get being away from your child is hard but we need you both on this mission. You are one of the best technicians on the team." You sigh heavily but agreed anyway she'll be fine, you'll just have to give her to your mother for the time being. "Perfect, you leave 2 days time." With that everyone started to leave.

2 days time? That's hardly enough time at all.
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The day went on and you let Becca play with Morgan for a little while longer as well as Steve, Sam and Bucky catch up while you half listened to Tony ramble on about new inventions and suit ideas and still focus on your daughter.

"How do you do it?" You ask Tony causing him to stop mid sentence. "How do you go on a mission and leave pepper and Morgan?"

"It's not easy but if going on a dangerous mission is what it takes to make the world safer for her then it's got to be done." He replies standing next to you.

"It's a big price to pay, endangering your life to make hers better." You start to chew on your nails, a bad habit of yours when you were anxious.

"Would you rather not?"

"I'd rather live it with her and him." Tony's hand goes to your upper arm as he rubs it reassuringly.

"They'll be fine, you'll see." Tony nudges you then Bucky appears.

"Ready to go?"
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After dinner Bucky cleans the dishes then heads off for a shower before he joins you in bed, you would be settling Rebecca while he does this. After the shower he heads to your shared room but notices you leaning  against your daughters door way, he understands how you feel he always worries about leaving the two of you. His hands snake around your waist and he rests his chin on your shoulder.

"I promise you, she'll be fine."

"I know, I know. This is still so new to me and I'd hate to turn into a helicopter mom too." Bucky chuckles.

"In a world like this? It wouldn't be the worst thing I mean we know more than what normal helicopter moms know. Now come to bed, allow me to help you relax." He winks and leads you away into the bedroom.

"Bucky I know what you are planning but we can't." You whine and you hold his hands and shut the bedroom door with your foot.

"What can't a gentleman give his beautiful wife a back massage? What were you thinking?" You laugh at him, of course he would say that you've known him long enough to know his tricks, "get your mind out of the gutter."

"Your tone was mildly suggestive and you did it on purpose." You take your seat in front of Bucky as he moves your hair to the side and starts to massage your shoulders and back. "I hate you."

"No you don't and you know it. You can't resist me."

"That's it no more spending time with Sam he's a terrible influence." You throw one of the cushions at Bucky which made him laugh and pull you down into the bed. "I love you."

"I love you too."