I promise

The morning after

Draco's POV

I woke up from the stinging on my face, realizing I forgot of all the shit that happened the pervious night. I wasn't in my right mind last night, I smoked way too much plus I might have dabbled into some powder if you know what I mean, and to top it off I had about 8 shots of fire whiskey. Luckily Blaise was beginning to wake up, I needed to know how bad of a dick I was I don't have much recollection, but it's like my brain has burned the images of Kerrie crying from my words into it. I don't mean to hurt her but it's the only way, I can't be vulnerable nor can I be selfish within a year or two they're going to pick one of us to be a new follower of the dark lord. My father tells me his arms starting to burn again and with my luck it's going to be me and I refuse to drag her into that, she's too good to be in a world like mine. Darkness. I'll just bring her down and I simply won't do that even if I can't get her out of my mind, her scent, the way she chews the inside of her cheek when she's nervous, how she complains about how her hair curls even though I like it that way. I observe her from a far I notice the little things, I feel like they matter the most I could tell you the smallest details I notice about her that most wouldn't but it would take days to tell you all of them. She draws me in but I can't let her get anymore close I can't let her close to me at all so I have to hurt her for her sake. "See you've got your a busted lip mate." Blaise spoke. "Yeah I probably deserve it don't I to be honest I don't remember much." I lightly laughed. "You don't remember? You were foul to her, put me in a shit position were I had to tell her business." He said calmly yet it held an angry tone to it. "I brought up Flint?" I said in shock. "Yeah you did basically told her it's her fault cause she's a slag, your barking mad she's a nice girl you know? She didn't deserve that." He said. "I'm a dick. How do I fix this?" I asked genuinely concerned. "There is no fix to this Draco, you can't just go making a girl feel worthless and think it can't be fixed? She probably still crying now as we speak you were ruthless." He said clearly angry, I don't blame him I'm angry with myself to maybe if things were different and I was someone else this kind of life would be much easier, I could be nice and caring if only I wasn't a Malfoy. "I have to go I need to tell her sorry or something." I said walking to my night stand ripping some parchment paper starting to write I'm sorry onto it and grabbing a chocolate frog. "A sorry note and a chocolate frog? Really that's the best you could come up with?" Blaise scoffed. "I barely say I'm sorry ever plus girls like chocolate Blaise." I shrugged before making my way to the girls dorms. I quickly put the note and chocolate outside of her room and went back to the dorm to finish getting ready so I could head down to breakfast with Blaise. I could tell he was still upset with me but he's my best mate he couldn't be much angrier for long. We made our way to the great hall taking our seats as Astoria quickly ran over to us taking a seat next to me. Honestly I can't stand the girl but she's there when she's needed. "What you guys did last night was brilliant." She smiled. "Brilliant? Are you fucking kidding me? Do yourself a favor and shut the fuck up Greengrass." Blaise snapped at her making her face turn red. She must of got the hint cause after that she didn't say a word for about five minutes as we ate silently. However the silence didn't last long as I heard multiple pairs of footsteps headed towards me making eye contact with Kerrie along with Kendall, Morgan, Pansy, and Hermione, great looks like they all had front row seats to the show last night. As they got closer I could see her puffy eyes that I had caused, she was still beautiful though she would always be beautiful to me even though I could never have her. "Are you fucking serious a chocolate frog and an 'I'm sorry' note the fuck is wrong with you Malfoy." Kendall nearly screamed drawing attention from the few students that were in the great hall. "Your more foul than I thought Malfoy you deserve to rot." The mudblood spoke, however I'm staying quiet I deserve this. "I thought better of you Draco." Pansy said. "Your a piece of shit I tried to tell everyone this I don't care who you both smelt in your amortentia your just a replica of your father." Morgan spat. I thought hufflepuff's were nice? I didn't say anything I knew I deserved this so I let them keep bashing and bashing me, until she spoke her voice softer than usual, "just let him be guys, he's caused enough damage I now see that Malfoy has no heart he doesn't give a damn about a single word any of us say so just leave it." She said. I do I really do care but I'll let her think I don't it's the best way the only way perhaps.