My Bad Boy✔

Not Enough(Edit)

Seokjin

The time we spent in the park was fun, it took my mind off of Jungkook for a little while. But now he is right back in it. Why do I not want to stay away from him, all the stuff he does without any thought for others it should make me want to run the opposite direction. We head to the ice cream shop because Taehyung and I had a bet going and I won. Now he owes me ice cream. We are all sitting outside enjoying the nice night when a loud motorcycle pulls up to the curb across the street. 

When the driver pulls his helmet off I see it's Jungkook. "Fuck", Yoongi says under his breath. On the back of his bike is some guy that Jungkook starts making out with and groping right in the middle of the sidewalk. I place my spoon down and get up, "excuse me. I need to go." "ASSHOLE", Jimin screams. Jungkook turns and immediately goes pale seeing all of us there and pushes the guy away. Jimin starts to  walk toward him to confront him but Yoongi pulls him back. "It's not worth it baby," he says.  "Don't Jimin, it's not like he and I are together. He can do what he wants," I remind him. 

Hoon comes over and hugs me, "are you okay, what's going on." "Its nothing. I just dont feel well. Can we go please," I say to everyone. "Jin wait. Can I please talk to you," Jungkook ask running over to me. "There is nothing to talk about Jungkook. Go back to your date, its rude to keep him waiting," I say not looking at him. Hoon wraps his arm around me to lead me away. "Who the fuck are you," Jungkook says angrily. "I should be asking you that. I dont think Seokjin wants to talk to you," Hoon defends. Jungkook takes my hand and pulls me away from him and toward his bike. "Get on, here is a helmet", he says ripping it out of the guys hand that he was just kissing. "Jungkook, what the fuck", the guy says. "You were a mistake", he said and gets on his bike.

Jungkook

I drive away as fast as I can. I have to get Seokjin alone and away from all the people who are against me and away from that guy who was touching him. I saw red when he hugged Jin like that. I had no right, because two minutes before I had my tongue down some guys throat but I couldn't help myself. Im a fucking hypocrite. I cant believe Jin saw me kiss that guy. I pull over to a well lit park with a pond and some benches. Climbing off my bike, I help Jin off. He walks to the pond and looks out over the water. 

"I'm so sorry Seokjin, I am sorry you had to see that," I say.  I don't even know how to begin to prove to him how sorry I am. "Why are you apologizing. We are not a thing, we are not dating. I am not yours and you are not mine," he says, hearing the sadness in his voice. "Jin, I've never done this before. I have no clue what I am doing. I have never been jealous of anyone and I have never felt the need to apologize to someone before," I admit. He turns to me, anger in his eyes. "Am I supposed to feel special Jungkook. To know that when I am not around you dont give a flying fuck who you fuck, but the minute I am in front of you, you suddenly want me. Fuck that and fuck you," he says angrily. 

We were both quiet for quite some time, till I see him visibly shiver. "Come on, let's get you home, you're cold out here", I say helping him on the bike, putting my leather coat on him and securing his helmet. "I dont want to go home," he says defiantly. "Let's get some hot chocolate, yea," I ask. Pouting, he nods his head. I drive to a little café not far from the bike shop. I tell Jin to find a seat and I would order our drinks. The waitress of course is an acquaintance of mine, maybe bringing Jin here was a bad idea. "Hi Kookie, when are we going to get together again", she coo's. 

"We aren't", I say grabbing the drinks and sitting by Jin. "Sorry about that", I say. "Stop apologizing Jungkook, you are nothing to me. You kiss whoever you want. I'm the stupid one who allowed you to kiss me, even after what the bartender told me", he says stirring his hot chocolate. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't promise him anything because I knew I'd never keep it. but I want him to know that I do want to try, for him. Because if anyone can make me change, its him. 

I pull up to his house and he climbs off the back of the bike. Handing me the helmet and my jacket, "thank you for the hot chocolate." He turns to walk away but then turns back around. "Jungkook, will you kiss me", he asks. I look at him confused, but get off my bike and walk to him. I wrap my arms around his waist and pull him closer to me. This kiss is softer than our first one, it actually has my toes curling. Damn he is such a good kisser, and the little whimpers he is making is driving me crazy. 

He pulls away abruptly and I am disappointed. I just want to take him and run away somewhere, far away from everybody. I look into his eyes, and Trick is right, there is hope in there. I can see a future in those beautiful brown eyes. "I noticed you right away in front of a mall, and damn Jungkook you took my breath away, you really did. I then see you at a bar the same night. Most people would think its destiny, and the attraction I had for you was palpable. The kiss we shared that night electrified my whole body, totally blew my mind because I never felt with anyone before. So I asked you to kiss me to tonight to see if I felt that again, which I did. But it seems you dont feel the same things I do, because if you did you wouldn't be able to look at another person, so I am saying goodbye Jungkook, I hope you truly find what you are looking for one day. Because it isnt me apparently. Good night Jungkook", he says walking away. 

I watch as he walks into his house, shutting the door practically in my face, and for the first time ever in my life, my heart is broke and it hurts. I sit on my bike for a second trying to catch my breath. I can't let him just walk away. I need to prove to him somehow, that he is what I want and that he is more than enough. I pull away from his house and when I get home Yoongi starts right in. I let him holler and push me, telling me how dumb I am and that someone like me doesnt deserve Jin. He's right, but I want to deserve him and I have to find a way.