Mixtape blues

Radioactive-Imagine Dragons

    Whenever  Florence  wasn't  with Lara, she was  hanging onto a bottle, drinking to her  heart's content. No matter how many times, Lara had tried to convince that  drinking wouldn't  help anything, Florence would  still come  to Lara's house in the late night hours, on the  verge of puking, just so   Lara could hold her  hair for her, while  Florence emptied her  stomach's content. She hated it  more than anything, but she couldn't leave   Florence, not now, not ever.

 Lara woke up to the sound of crying. She opened her eyes to see her mother holding Florence in her arms. Lara looked at her clock, it was 5 in the morning. She got out of bed and  hugged  Florence.

" What's the matter? Are you okay?" Lara looked at her mom and motioned for her to eave. Once her mother had left, they sat down at the bed.  Lara rocked her back and forth letting  the  tears   fall onto her  hair.

" My  mom kicked me out of the house.  I told her that   I was bi,  that we were together." Florence managed to say  in between sobs.

" I'm so sorry.  You can stay here as long as you want." Florence started to shake, Lara helped her into the bed and tucked her in. Florence  continued to cry, until all the tears had run out, and then she fell asleep. Lara sat down on the bed for a few minutes, listen to Florence's  deep breaths, until she had fallen  asleep  curled up around  Florence.

 The next morning Florence said that she needed to think, needed to be alone. She had a cousin in the country. She would be back as soon as she figured things out. Lara didn't  argue, but it still hurt to see  her go.

 After Florence had been gone for  2 weeks without  calling, Lara  started to worry. She knew Florence wanted to  be alone but she couldn't help but  worry about her.

 One night when her parents were out, Lara  opened to see   Florence  with all of her blond hair shaven off, her  clothes  stinking of booze and her shakings violently. Lara held her fair, while Florence barfed   into the toilet.  Once   Florence was done, they sat down on the  couch, waiting for Florence's  explaination.

"  I drank way too much, I passed out and  when I woke up, my head was  shaved. I'm sory, I should have come  stayed with you. I know that I promised that I would never drink again, and I really tried  but my mom  pushed me over the edge, and I don't think  I can  ever get back up."

 No  matter  what Lara did  to help Florence, nothing worked. She tried  alcoholics  anonymous, and Lara took away her fake id but whenever Lara  left florence alone, she always ended  up with a drink in her hand.

 One night after  watching  Florence's  favorite  movie, she turned to Lara and told  her what  Lara  had been dreading.

" We need to break-up." When she  said this, she  didn't  sad, nor  did she seem happy.   It was  just  a fact, that  no one had said until then.

" We can get through this together. You can't push me away when things get tough. That's not how life works. I love you, I'm not leaving you."

" I love you too, and that's why I'm pushing you away. You're the best thing that has ever happened to you, and I don't want you to get hurt."

" Don't I get a say."  Lara said  through tears.

" No, I know  you think that you destroy everything you touch but that's not true. It's me that destroys  everything , one day I'm going to blow up, and I don't  want you to be there when it happens.  Someday, when everything is okay, I'll come back, but that day isn't day." Lara didn't say anything  as Florence got up and walked out of the  door without another word.