Be Ready

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That would mean that you have to be entirely ready. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually and financially ready.

I started having crushes when I was still in gradeschool. Crazy but frankly speaking, my hormones started to make fun of me in such an early age. I have my first menstruation on fifth grade. Embarrassing but it happened.

With limited ideas on romantic relationships can be too much for a gradeschooler. All we knew were  "love at first sight" and "first love never die". Television did screw us up.

I grew taller compared to my other classmates and was placed at the back together with older students. I made friends with them and they influenced me. I forgot one thing, I was not ready.

My friends at the back were already teenagers and they were busy looking for boyfriends. At first, I knew that my parents won't approve that but most of them were so good at keeping secrets. So I learned from them. No one wants to be left behind, my friends would often set me up to other boys until such time, I found a boyfriend.

Communication is essential so I bothered my parents so much to buy me a phone so that my boyfriend and I could text each other. During those days, mobile phones were not a necessity. To avoid my nonstop request, my parents made a deal that if I'll be the top of the class, I'll get my reward.

Obviously, I was not financially ready to buy for myself. There were times when I sneek in to dad's drawer to use his phone and as expected, I was caught.

Because I was also not mentally ready, I was not able to understand the reason behind their protection. I would always defend myself and lie to my parents just to satisfy my emotional needs. I thought "that" love is all I need. Yup, not emotionally ready.

Most of all, my God wants me to grow with Him first. I was not spiritually ready.

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The craziest experience I had at this time was saying this crazy prayer. I was  just 10 years old and my boyfriend and I got in a fight.

God,

I am out of texts. I need money so that I can text him because I love him so much and I needed us to work. Promise, I will be a good girl. I will do my chores, I will study harder, I pray to you often. Just give me money.

Amen.

Hahahahah! Poor little girl, so pure but also innocent. She didn't know that life isn't always cupcakes and rainbows. (I got that from the movie Trolls)

I wiped my tears and do a lot of household chores and I asked my mom for money to load me some texts. Unfortonately, we broke up still.

Most of the young girls believed that first love never dies and that took me more than a while to recover. I even thought we'd work out when we met on the same college.

Yes! We went to the same college! After being separated during highschool, I had other relationships (Spoiler Alert!) but still my heart beats whenever I lay my eyes on him.

I would definitely laugh about it now. How about you? What is your first relationship experience? Please do leave a comment.

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