Dance of Lilies

Chapter 6 - Ursa's POV

(To be edited and updated with better structure and flow: 29-30.7.21)

I don't know how I have come to this decision. I don't know what'll happen to me. I don't know anything right now.

Ever since Kyuuna revealed my secret, I've been unable to close my eyes in safety. I know she isn't going to go around telling everyone, but it's enough that she and her little family knows. If any of my clients know that I'm a fraud, I'll be dead before I know it.

So, I do what I do best. I run. Severing my ties to the Black Lilies was harder than anticipated, the other clients were much easier to deal with. Now, I'm on that same list Kyuuna has been for ages. It didn't take long for them to hire a new person to try to deliver unjust justice to whoever they deem rotten in their eyes. Including me.

I don't know anything.

"So, let me get this right..." Sabi starts her words calm as always, her fingers dancing on the porcelain cup that steams with fresh tea. I have a cup right in front of me, but I haven't touched it.

"Have you come to talk to Kyuuna?" Sabi seems to truly taste the words that escape her lips. She doesn't look angry, she doesn't carry any disgust towards me, but I can see the clear doubt in her opal eyes. She doesn't want Kyuuna to get hurt.

"I won't be here for long," I mutter. "I just need to tell my message and then I'll disappear. For good."

Sabi lets out a soft hum, as if she's considering my plea. I feel disgusted at myself, being this weak, this desperate to help. I don't think I can erase my past, it's not what I'm trying to do, so why am I here?

"I'll go get her," Sabi says after a long silence. I tense up the moment she gets up from her chair. It's such an exaggerated, disgustingly vulnerable move from me that Sabi notices it.

"I'm not going to hurt you." Sabi's words are a statement. She knows I've hurt plenty of nightmares in my life, and she doesn't trust me, but she won't do the same to me. I don't look at her, I don't dare to meet her empathy. I don't deserve it, I don't need it. I just need to get this over with.

Why am I here?

When Sabi doesn't get a reply from me, she simply walks to the door and disappears for a moment. I can see her from the moss illustrated windows as she walks down the cobblestone path towards the garden. It's a beautiful hutt with a stunning yard. It's such a sight it hurts.

Sabi returns with Kyuuna. It's been a month since we last saw, and now, once again, all the injuries from our previous meeting have been healed and scarred. The dark lashes of scarring run down her face, and I don't remember if I was the one to make those. Maybe it was Mimoi, but same difference.

Kyuuna doesn't look angry when she sees me. She should be furious, but instead, she pulls a chair closer to me and sits down. I feel awkward, I feel like I'm intruding. I don't know why I was even allowed in this forest.

"You wanted to talk to me?" Kyuuna's voice is gentle, way too happy to the fact that she's sitting in front of someone who tormented her for years. Instead of disgust, she carries a certain sense of serenity with her. Sabi sits behind Kyuuna, sips her tea like the person who almost killed her partner isn't sitting in the same room.

"I wanted to warn you," I say quietly. Am I really doing this? Am I really making things even harder for myself? The words flow out in their honesty, and my fate gets sealed.

"The Black Lilies have hired a new person to get rid of you. Their name is Dahliel. Dahliel Kreshka-Luutti. They are a plant nightmare, a poisonous kind."