What if?

9

As I open my eyes I realise the pain in my body is no where near as bad as last night. It aches for sure but I can handle this kind of pain.

I turn my head to see a glass of water and some pills on the table with a note. I open it to see Alyssa has written ' take these when you wake up and text me and I'll be over.' I pull myself up to take the pills and notice will sleeping on the floor next to the bed. He looks so peaceful and pretty. His mouth hangs open slightly and his hand lies behind his head.

I swallow the pills and notice my phone on the table next to me.

Of course someone has charged it up for me, probably Alyssa.

Morning I'm wake. Feeling much better. You coming over later?

I press send and lean back. I watch wills chest rise and fall as he breathes deeply. He snores really quietly. His hair is all messy compared to its usual perfectness. When looking at him closely I notice light freckles across his face that I'd never noticed before.

I feel my phone vibrate and notice a text back from Alyssa.

On my way now.

I can't help but smile. Alyssa is so kind and caring. She would cut off her arm to make someone smile.

The door opens and Alex stands there.

" Alyssa said your awake." He says very matter of factly. I notice will waking up.

" yep, I'm awake. That's why my eyes are open." I frown.

" ok." Alex nods and leaves the room awkwardly.

" how are you feeling?" Will sits up and places a comforting hand on my thigh.

" I'm ok, it hurts a bit to move but it's much better than last night." He watches me so intently.

" I'll go make you some breakfast, do you want it here or do you want to try go to the kitchen?" He looks concerned and sad.

" I'm not paralysed!" I laugh.

" I know, I just-"

" let's go to the kitchen." I smile at him to try make him feel better.

I have to force myself to stand up and my body aches badly.

" oh my god, George." Will looks like he may cry.

I look down and notice my chest and stomach looks even worse than last night, like I'd been hit by a bus.

" it's ok, it doesn't hurt as much anymore." It feels weird seeing myself this way.

" why didn't you fight back? Your strong and capable." His mouth hangs open slightly as he looks me over.

" I was really drunk, I couldn't think properly and I just didn't realise what was happening until it was too late. Damage was done." I shrug but it hurts and I wince.

" George, I'm so sorry. Don't go back there, please. Live here with me and Alex. Please." He pleads. I had thought about it before but I can't afford this place.

" I can't afford it." I look away from him.

" Alex only needs one financial roommate and you practically live here anyway." He goes to touch my shoulder but hesitated before lightly resting his hand on me.

" let's just wait and see what Alex thinks." I silently hope Alex says no. It's already intoxicating being around will this much as it is but living with him? I don't think I could do it, especially if he had a girl over.

" I found some joggers and a jumper you could wear, they're very lightweight and shouldn't be too tight so it won't hurt as much." He pulls out a set.

I just smile and roll my eyes at him before accepting the clothes and use him to lean on as I pull the joggers up. I groan as I lean down. It's like I pulled every muscle in my body.

" wait," I say as I think " how does my face look?"

" better than last night." Will gulps.

" morning!" Alyssa giggles as she opens the door. Justin stands behind her awkwardly.

" she made me come." He shrugs.

" you best friend got beaten up badly! Your lucky I didn't force you to stay the night here." She growls at him.

" you practically did! We only left 4 hours ago because you insisted on checking on him every hour!" Justin groans loudly.

" yeah, to make sure he didn't have internal bleeding!" She chirps back at him.

" your bleeding is supposed to be internal! That's where your blood is!" He moans.

" oh my god." Alyssa shakes her head at him before making her way to me and lifts the sweater I'm wearing up to see my chest.

" this is actually a good sign, it shows the swelling has stopped which means your healing." She let's go of my sweater.

" thanks doc." I joke.

" I brought pancakes." She smiles and walks out of the room with Justin following her like a lost puppy.

" guess I'm not cooking anymore." Will smiles at me before taking my hand and leading me to the kitchen. It's uncomfortable to move but I'll survive.

I notice Alex sitting by the table awkwardly like he does when he's thinking. Everyone is overreacting, it's just some bruises. I'm fine.

" hey Alex, George wants to ask you something." Will pokes at the situation.

" yes, Alex, will you marry me?" I joke and Alex fake cries.

" come on George." Will rolls his eyes at me.

" could I possibly move in? Just for a while and I can leave anyti-"

" yes!" Alex screams and goes back to staring awkwardly.

" uh, ok." I frown at him and he frowns back.

Justin looks at us and squints his eyes.

" Alex? What's going on?" I watch Alex as he gulps loudly.

" nothing." He smiles way too big then walks away to his room.

I look at will then make my way to Alex's room closing the door behind me.

" what's going on?" I sit down slowly on his bed and he sit down next to me.

" nothing." He mutters like a lying child.

" come on, your being weird. " I poke him.

" you really scared me last night. You were covered in blood and all swollen, I thought you were going to die and it made me realise you literally are the person who means most to me in the world and that's fucking terrifying." He looks at me awkwardly.

" so basically you realised I'm super awesome?" I smirk at him.

" no seriously George, I love you man. "

" your freaking me out but yes love you too." It does feel weird hearing usually crazy Alex so serious.

" ok. Now I can focus." He sighs.

" I can't pay you rent Alex. I'm sorry I just have no money so If you want to change your mind it's no hard feelings." I look down at the floor in shame. I'm broke. I could barely afford the accommodation I was living in before and I have another two months contract with them.

" no, George, honestly it's fine. There's not even another room so I can't charge you rent and I don't want to anyway. And you practically lived here anyway." He laughs.

" thanks. We should join the others, yeah?" I slap Alex's thigh and he yelps.

This is going to be terrible. Living with will? Bad idea.

" I'm glad I've got my cuddle buddy back." Alex says before kissing my cheek.

" shut up!" I push him away.