Team Winter Soldier, Assassins in love.

Dont Forget

"What is in this? You have barely been living here for a week!"
You laugh as you watch Bucky move the last of your boxes to his room from yours.
"It's all of my weights and other exercise equipment! How do you think I got looking this good?" You give him a wink and hold his door open so he could carry the heavy box through. Of course it wasn't too difficult for him thanks to Hydras serum flowing through his veins. You could have carried them yourself but Bucky insisted. Bucky sets down the box and surveys the room.
"You know, this room really did need your touch. It looks so comforting now. We are gonna need a new bookshelf though, our collections combined far exceed this shelf's capacity."

Later that day, after training with Nat and Wanda, you come into your shared room to change into a new tank top. Your current one is drenched with sweat. You are caught off guard though when you open the door and find Bucky in there wearing a pair of light blue form fitting jeans and a white tank top, his hair pulled into a bun. His muscles bulge as he lifts a board into place and begins hammering a nail to keep it in his desired position. After he jiggles it a few times to make sure it will stay he grabs a towel out of his back pocket and wipes the sweat off his neck. He turns around taking a swig out of a water bottle.
"How does it look Doll? I decided since I have the time I might as well build the new bookshelf. That way we have one the exact size we need."
You can't help but smile at the childish look of pride and joy he had on his face. Bucky loves having physical challenges that don't involve fighting or violence. Personally you love fighting and the physical challenges that come with it, but Bucky has been through enough battles. You pull him into a hug.
"It looks absolutely amazing Buck! You are very good with your hands."
You give him a wink and turn your back on him striping off your shirt to replace it. You can feel his eyes on your back, and your heart is pumping so loud you know he can hear it, you can hear his too as it picks up pace. You can hear his breath going in and out of his lungs, faster and faster. You feel a rush of adrenaline as you tease him. But soon enough you find your clean shirt and pull it over your head.
"Welp I gotta go, Nat wants me to start meditating, she says it will help bring back some of my memories."
As you say this you see worry momentarily cross Bucky's face. He quickly hides it with a smile.
"That sounds like a great idea! I'm just going to finish up here and then I'll join you guys on the training field."
You walk up and kiss him on the cheek and run out before he can react.
You walk outside across the grass to the edge of the pool, where Nat wanted you to meet her. Your heart soars, and you are almost skipping. You can't help it. For once in your longer than average life, you feel like you belong. You feel at home. Peter is in the pool laying on a pizza shaped raft, half asleep. You grab a beach ball off one of the chairs and chuck it at him.
"Woah! Wait-!"
He screams at the surprise, and falls into the water. You start laughing, but then Peter doesn't come up. You get close to the edge and look for him.
"Peter?! I swear if you are trying to scare me I will kick your ass!"
Suddenly he lunges out of the water and grabs your arm, throwing you off balance and you both fall into the water.
"Oh I'm gonna get you for that Spider Boy!"
You and Peter mess around the pool splashing each other and screaming. Until you hear someone clear their voice behind you. You turn around to find Nat standing there. Soaking wet. Oh shit.
"H- Hey Nat."
She just stands there her clothes dripping water onto the pavement, while you and Peter try to hold in your laughter. Suddenly Nat jumps in the water and grabs Peter and dunks him underwater. Then she turns and splashes you. Peter comes up spluttering, with a surprised look in his face. Nat shrugs.
"What?! Just because I am old that means I can't have a little fun? Anyway, we need to get on with your meditation Y/N."
You start following her out of the water, but you turn back and look at Peter, who still looks like he is in complete shock. You shrug your shoulders and continue following Nat to the sunnier side of the pool. She lays out a blanket that she had apparently set there in preparation. You start to feel nervous with anticipation. What if you do start to remember? Are you ready for those answers? Nat sits down and crosses her legs, she motions for you to do the same across from her. Which is hard in your soaking wet workout pants, but at least they aren't jeans. You follow Nat's example and cross your legs underneath you. Nat gently takes your hands in hers.
"Okay Y/N, close your eyes. Imagine a place you feel safe, a place you are at peace."
Your first thought is your childhood home, but there are too many sad memories tied up in that. Then the beach from your dream comes into mind. You were safe there, and you were with your family, both your families. You remember the smell of the sea on the wind, and the feel of the sand under your feet. Bucky's arm around you, and your brother smiling at you. Your sister's laughs in the air. You picture yourself there, in the hot sun. You feel Nat squeeze your hands. She speaks to you in a calming voice.
"Are you there?"
You nod slowly.
"Now take a deep breath, and picture the day you were taken by hydra. If you get scared at any point of this, then go back to that safe place. Are you ready to begin?"
You nod once more.
"Okay tell me what you feel, what you see, and what you hear."
You tremble as you think about that day.
"I feel chains, and cloth being shoved into my mouth. I see darkness. They blindfolded me! I can't breath!"
You start panicking. Your heart thumping out of your chest. Nat squeezes your hands reassuringly. Suddenly the compound, Nat, everything around you melts away.
~
You are in a dark stone cell, people are all around you and pulling at you, and examining you. Suddenly you were being pulled upright and dragged down a dingy hallway with flickering lights. You can't walk, your body is too weak from being in cryo so long. They drag you into a room and throw you on the ground. You lay there in a heap on the dirty, cold stone floor. What year is this? What time is it? How long can this continue? You jolt a little as you hear someone enter the room. You hear two people mumbling back and forth.
"She has already passed all the exams and missions we have thrown her way. It's time to bring him in, if she beats him then she lives. If she loses, well then we just wasted our time."
You hear the door open again.
"Yes sir."
Someone else enters the room. You can hear the difference in footsteps. Suddenly a figure grabs you and pulls you upright. The first thing you see is a cold metal hand closed around your shirt, keeping you in a standing position. At first you are afraid of him. But then you look into his eyes. They are your eyes, scared, broken. He is a victim, just like you. A weapon. He speaks to you in Russian, you join him in the same language.
"Are you ready to comply?"
You nod at him.
"Ready to comply."
"Prepare to fight."
He lets go and you stagger a bit, but manage to stay upright. He steps back into a fighting position, and you follow suit. Ready for anything he might throw your way. You notice men on the other side of a glass window, watching the two of you intently. That's when you see the red star on the shoulder of his silver arm. You have heard of him from some of the other soldiers in training, and you have seen him once or twice, this is The Winter Soldier. You know what this is. The final test. If you pass, Hydra keeps you as an assassin, an asset. You lose on the other hand, they eliminate you, you are useless to them. Hand to hand, this can't be so hard. But you have been in cryo for who knows how long. They aren't even giving you the chance to warm up. Before you get the chance to finish your thought The Soldier attacks you. He wraps his metal arm around your throat, bringing you into his body so that you are facing away from him. He bends his head slightly and whispers in your ear, using English to your surprise.
"You can't beat me. They will kill you if you give them the chance. We only have one shot to do this successfully."
You look at him in shock. Well as best you can with the way he is currently detaining you.
"What are you talking about?"
He rolls his eyes.
"We have one shot of getting out of here, they are getting a new ammunition shipment today and five of the guards are ill. They are understaffed. This is our one chance."
One of the hydra agents bangs his fist on the window. He yells something in Russian. You can't quite understand him because of the glass. But you get the overall idea. Fight. You lunge at The Soldier and take him down onto his back. You try to punch him but he kicks you in the stomach and sends you flying. He then grabs you and traps you against the wall. You can feel every inch of his muscled body pressed against the back of you, his strong thighs keep your legs pinned against the wall and you can feel him get a little hard as his hips press against your ass. You feel heat travel up your body. Wait a second, this isn't right! You are supposed to be fighting him! This shouldn't turn you on. You can't help but feel the heat gather between your legs. He speaks, and you snap back to attention.
"I know what you are thinking."
He whispers so quietly you almost don't hear him. His breath tickles the back of your neck, making your body shiver, and you start to shake. He laughs gently.
"There will be time for that later, are you coming with me? Or do I have to break your legs so you can't follow me?"
You go weak when he talks. Time for it later? Yeah you are definitely following him!
"I will come with you."
The Winter Soldier presses up against you a little more.
"Good choice."
He pushes off of you and then grabs your hand.
"We need to run. Once we start we can't stop."
You nod in acknowledgment. You both start running towards the door, still holding hands. Alarms start going off and you can see the men behind the window stand and start screaming at you and The Soldier. As you are running The Soldier turns to you.
"My name is Bucky by the way."
You laugh. The hilarity of this situation, you both running for your lives, and freedom. Holding hands. And you didn't even know his real name.
"Well it's nice to meet you Bucky."
You say panting. A group of Hydra agents round the corner.
"Soldiers, stand down, now!"
You and Bucky stand there looking at each other. Bucky grabs a nearby chair and throws it at the nearest agent. Knocking him out. He grabs some guns off them. He takes the handgun and throws you a shotgun. You fight your way through with Bucky for what feels like hours. You start to get tired. Finally you see light. The exit! You turn and smile at Bucky.
"Buck! We are almost there!"
He smiles at you and squeezes your hand. You both run to the exit. Bashing guards and agents here and there, your guns growing hot from use. You watch Bucky fight furiously to the point he shot a guard at such close range, the guards head exploded and blood splattered on Bucky's face, but he didn't care. Finally you breach the door and run out into the cold snow filled air. You and Bucky keep running until you reach the forest. You both slow down to catch your breath. You turn around in circles enjoying the feeling of the sun on your skin. Bucky watches you smiling.
"It's been so long since I've felt the sun on my skin. Thank you Buck." You walk over to him and use your shirt to gently clean the blood off his face.
Suddenly a loud gunshot echoes around the forest, your ears ringing, you turn trying to find the source but see nothing, you turn back to Bucky.
"We need to run!"
But when you look at him you see him clutching his side. Burgundy red blood dripping from between his fingers. You feel the blood drain from your face. You don't know this man. But he saved you. You can't just leave him here to die. You look around through the forest your gun raised, you creep your way to where Bucky is lying. He is panting, sweat dripping down his face. He gasps as he tries to move. You lean down and pull him into your arms, pressing down on his wound over his hands. He grunts in pain. You try to ignore the feeling of his hot slippery blood between his fingers. Bucky tries to stand up. You hold tight to keep him from moving. Your heart is pounding. You have to save him.
"Shhh, it's okay. Don't move, it's okay."
He looks at you in surprise. You realize he has probably never had someone who cared about him before, at least not for a long, long time. Bucky looks up at you.
"Run, you've got to run! Run and never look back!"
You shake your head no, and hold onto him.
"Not without you!"
He shoved you away from him, as Hydra agents started circling the clearing. Bucky looks around panicked.
"You've got to go! At least one of us will make it! One of us can heal, make amends! Please."
At the last part he looks up at you with tears in his eyes, begging. He grabs your hands in his.
"Please go Doll."
You can hear a voice in the distance.
"Y/N! Y/N!"
~

You snap back to the present world. Nat is standing over you, shaking your shoulders. You can see her relief when she sees you have opened your eyes.
"Oh thank God! What happened?!
Nat gets pushed aside, and Bucky takes her place leaning over you.
"Y/N, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
He gently strokes your cheek. He helps you sit up, but you start to fall back over. Your head is swimming. Bucky stabilizes you with his body by sitting behind you and letting you lean against him. Peter is standing nearby watching with concern on his face. You see Tony fast walking across the lawn with Bruce close behind. You giggle a little at how silly Tony looks walking like that. When they get closer Tony calls out.
"Is she okay?! What happened?! Nat I told you not to do anything dangerous!"
He sounds like a nervous soccer mom. Bucky shakes his head in amusement.
"I'm gonna step back now and let Bruce take care of you. Is that okay?"
You look up at him and nod, slightly nervous you will get dizzy again when he moves. He kisses you in the top of the head and moves back slowly, supporting you with his metal arm until he is sure you aren't going to fall over, and then steps back completely. You feel a warm fuzzy feeling when he kisses you on the head and your mind goes pleasantly numb. I'm so tired, I just want to go to bed. Bruce leans down and pulls a stethoscope, and blood pressure cuff out of his medical bag. He looks you in the eyes and smiles reassuringly.
"I'm just gonna check your vitals and then we will try to get you inside out of the sun."
You nod as he starts to work on you. You become oblivious to what's around you except the muffled screams of Tony as he tries to get Natasha to explain to him what happened, and Natashas screams back that she doesn't know. Sam and Bucky are talking quietly. Peter seems to notice you falling away from reality, he walks to you and kneels down and holds your hand. You look at him sleepily.
"Hey you."
He smiles and ruffles your hair gently.
"What happened Y/N? I was just in the pool and suddenly Nat started screaming your name, you had passed out or something."
You look at him and become suddenly emotional, you try to hold back your tears.
"I remembered. I remembered how I got away from Hydra. Som-someone saved me." Your voice cracks.
You look at Bucky, and you see the realization dawn on his face. He looks at you with tears in his eyes, and then runs and sweeps you up in his arms.
"I knew it! I knew you were familiar!"
You hug him tightly around the neck as he spins you around, smiling. He stops and looks at you so intensely you stop breathing, he leans in and kisses you. His lips warm and sweet against yours. He is gentle, and you feel a tear fall from his face and roll down your cheek. He pulls back and looks deeply into your eyes. You whisper so only he can hear you.
"Run, run and never look back."
Bucky smiles and kisses you again.
"Not without you."