DreamNotFound FF//Fan Fiction

~Chapter 1~

Third person POV

It was a normal day at least like in the last 2 years when Clay was already gone to study.

George POV

I was back on Twitch Live and was just playing Minecraft Bedwars with Sap and Karl, Karl was back with his "great Bedwars" skills.
Yes he wasn't the best in Bedwars.XD Sap and I were still trying to break each other's beds.
After about 10 minutes, Sap had managed to break my bed and I lost it. But I wanted a return, so we played again.
This time I was a little distracted by my clerks.
It was these hate clerks again...
I've got several of them lately a little more than otherwise...
They were typical ones, something like because I'm so thin or because I'm color blind or because I'm gay...
But I can't really do anything for that.

(In the Storry the fans know that they are together)

These hate clerks always get me pretty ready, I hardly sleep and eat only a little.
Clay always watches my streams even when he's not there and therefore sees the clerks, but he doesn't know how bad I am, I don't tell him anything.
I don't want him to worry or anything.
I saw that my bed was long gone because I was so absorbed in the clerks. Karl and Sap spoke to me the whole time, which I hadn't noticed.
At some point they had my attention and I just replied, "Sorry guys, I have to go off now, I still have something to do." They were confused but without saying anything I just stopped my game and ended the stream without saying goodbye.
Clay was in the stream as always and of course noticed that something was wrong.
And to my surprise, I got a message from him a minute later.

Chat from Clay and George

Clay: C
George: G

C: Hey Gogy are you all right? You just looked sad and ended the stream without saying anything, you were totally distracted and didn't react to Sap and Karl.

G: Yes, all good, I just miss my Pissbaby...

C: I miss you too, Gogy! 💚 But I'll be back in 3 days.

G: Yes, I'm looking forward to you! 💙

George POV

We wrote a few more minutes but that was just a matter of how things are going with his studies and such.
When we finished chatting, I realized what would happen when he was back...
I was starting to panic because razor blades were smeared with blood everywhere, there were blood stains and cotton towels and towels that were completely bled.
I had to clean up what I had no strength for because I hardly sleep any more and hardly eat anything, I know this is wrong but what should I do.
I can't just turn it off...
I knew when he was back he would drag me to the doctor...
The problem was that NOBODY really NOBODY knew that I was depressed, I didn't even tell Clay that.
So I tried to get up to clean up but couldn't.
Even Patches was fitter than me, of course I fed them and so I didn't have the strength to do more.
The only thing I could was to cry myself hurting myself and not doing anything...
And while I was in these thoughts I hurt myself again...
I was only conscious again when I felt the cold blood flowing down my arm and dripped onto the floor, but it didn't stop me from cutting any further.

At some point I just lay in bed and just cried and did nothing but stare into space and hear the purring of patches.
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Ok guys that was the first chapter.XD I hope it wasn't too brutal...
In any case, please don't be too strict, as I said, it's our first book.XD
If you have any ideas then please let us know!

2nd author:LunaInnitalt

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