Blooming Rose: A Pink Diamond Character Study

Ready and Deserving

Over the next few days, months, and years, Pink Diamond, or as she would rather be called, (something she still needed to figure out), took her time to get re-acquainted with everyone she had vague memories of. Oftentimes, she found herself surprised by how different they acted, but very often, she would be unable to tell if they were actually acting different or if she just perceived them different after the incident.

It didn't help that her trusted confidante and Pearl was only someone who came to being - and, as she would learn, was manufactured - after the incident; this lead to second guessing for both of them, and they might have actually picked up one or two falsehoods about the past. Yet, in general, Pink felt like her picture was accurate.

To start off, there was Pink's original Pearl; White had never released her grip upon her, and gave no indication when she would. For that reason, this Pearl's personality was simply nonexistent; she would only act the way White acted, say the things White said, even move to poses White moved to. Whether a conscious, cognizant Pearl still existed beneath the pale visage was pretty much anyone's guess; only White could confirm said guesses, and White remained tight-lipped on the matter.

This brought Pink to the Diamonds, starting with White. In general, White was a rather mysterious figure, who was never to be questioned under any circumstance, and who, rather frustratingly, rarely if ever spoke, and if she spoke, she would speak in an endless barrage of "definite, unchanging truths" that made Pink question whether or not White even had an opinion on the world around her, or if she truly lived in a world of facts and nothing else. And, well, if she didn't have an opinion on Pink, not much could potentially change it.

Then, there were Blue and Yellow. Before the incident, they seemed to be the primary force belittling her and even getting angry at her, and yet, as far as she could tell, this part of them was absent from their current demeanor. They would often talk behind her back, just before they entered her room, and they would always say things like "did Pink do the impossible?", "did she actually change for the better?" and so on.

Was there anything else that they described her as? Oh, yeah: "sleepy", whatever that word meant.

This happened, more often than not, when Pink needed a break from reality. In those cases, she would bundle up in a place she considered safe, like her room or other places she managed to find in the meantime, tell anyone present here (her Pearl in case of her room) not to let anyone in until she was done, close her eyes and immerse herself in cloudspace. She didn't know if this form of meditation had its own name, but she liked the sound of "sleepy" and might even have taken to referring to "sleeping" and other non-words.

Why did Pink need a break from reality? Her own gemstone issues, mostly. Occasionally, she would hear a vague presence of another voice, who she couldn't place as being any Gem in the room with her, and whom, if she wanted to think clearly and make rational decisions in line with those of the other Diamonds, she needed to shut away.

It's almost as though the incident had lasting impact on her, even though she was fully aware that her gemstone was healed. But this was something Pink preferred not to dwell on.

Anyway, that only really left Pink's court. As a whole, they didn't seem to be particularly different between pre-incident and post-incident: they still, much like Pink, thought that they needed to be able to colonize by themselves, rather than assist the other Diamonds if they got the chance, and if one could compare the morale of the different courts, Pink's would easily be the least motivated.

That being said, she could single out two members of the court: Spinel and Nephrite.

Spinel, of course, was a good friend and great fun, throughout it all. By this time, she and Pink had located a garden, on the shattered remains of a planet, which they could warp to so that no other Diamond would ever find them. Granted, the lack of gravity on something that was not a planetesimal was an issue, but eventually, Pink managed to make the garden into a nice place to live, complete with plant life from planets that were sadly doomed to succumb to the iron fist of the Gem Empire, all life included. This was another "safe space" for Pink to reside, and often, she would "sleep" here, too.