𝕆𝕦𝕣 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝔽𝕒𝕞𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕒 {𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕥𝕨𝕠}

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝔽𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕖𝕟: 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕨𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥

Karl shook his head quickly "No no no-" He hissed "Karl please don't make it harder then it already is-" Alex begged his voice shaking. He could deal with Nick's response but not Karl's. Nick stared at the ground in silence. "No! Alex please...y-your just saying what you think we want to hear b-but it's not what we want please-" Alex shook his head and pulled his arm from Karl's grasp "I'm not...I'm doing this f-for...for me. For me and for you and for...for your kids-" "OUR kids Alex! Our kids!" Nick exploded "Alex please-" "No..no Nick you told me...you told me they weren't mine-" "I was angry! I shouldn't have-" "NICK! You were fucking right okay?" Alex ran a hand through his hair "You were right, they aren't my kids...I should have known. I love them I do but I just..I can't do this to them anymore." He took a shaky breath and glanced at Karl. The brunette had pressed his hands over his ears as if blocking out what Alex was trying to say was going to stop him. "Karl please..." Alex begged and the brunette burst into tears "Alex don't leave us...please don't go...we love you too much I can't...I can't"  Karl struggled and Alex resisted the urge to hug him tight, to wrap his wings around Karl and Nick and protect them from himself. "...I'm not going to take Toby from you...I won't do that to you" He continued shakily "No-" Nick struggled but Alex was already walking up to the old room they shared.

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"ALEX LISTEN!" Nick growled slamming the suitcase Alex was using. Alex yelped and flinched away from the taller man, slightly scared by the rage in Nick's voice. Instantly Nick felt guilty and slowly he moved to hug Alex who slapped his hands away "No..Don't touch me I..I don't want to go back and if you touch me I know I will so please...please don't touch me..." he begged as Nick moved back. Karl tried again "Alex please you can't do this to yourself! We don't want you to leave us!" He begged "i know you think we'd rather have a relationship without you b-but...Alex there is no US without YOU please don't do this to us...We...We love you...I love you" Alex shakily turned, Karl's words had reached him...and Karl knew he had an opening and this would be his only chance to get his husband back. "I Can't lose you again Alex...I can't" Alex shifted slightly closer, and Nick quickly joined in when Karl choked on his tears "Alex...please I need you here. The kids..The kids need you" Alex shook his head, but it was small. "Alex...Alex you need to understand that Karl and I...We can't do this without you." Nick and Karl both moved closer, and Alex stumbled back, feeling slightly trapped. He closed his eyes and sat on the bed, for now...he was defeated. 

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His eyes opened tiredly and he yawned silently before he felt the arms wrapped around him, he shifted onto his back and stared at the ceiling. His body still tingled as he remembered the kisses...the touches...everything. Karl was asleep beside him while Nick was passed out beside Karl, hugging each other tight while holding Alex tight. He wanted to cry, to get angry at them and at himself for giving in so easily. He slid Karl's hands from his waist and turned to kiss him. Karl shifted and smiled sleepily into the kiss before falling asleep once again after Alex pulled away. He stood and walked to Nick's side and kissed him, hoping he would remain asleep. Thankfully, he did. Gently he pulled on his clothes, shuddering as his jeans pressed against vulnerable bruised spots  created by both Nick and Karl. He glanced at them once more, moving closer to kiss Karl's pale shoulder and Nick's marked Back before slipping out of the room. Was he wrong to leave them? He willed himself to move on, to continue away from them. "Papí?" Ayden called, Alex moved to his little boy's room, Mateo was asleep on the ground, toys in hand, while Ayden remained on the bed, trapped as he always was. "Hey...Hey conjita" Alex hummed walking over "Are you and Tubbo leaving?" "No bubs...Tubbo's staying here with you" Alex's heart ached as he watched Ayden register his words. Tubbo would be staying...but Alex would not. "Don't go" Ayden whispered "Please.." Alex grabbed Ayden's pale hand and kissed it "I gotta go conjita...I gotta go real bad" Ayden teared up but Alex wiped them away "Hey hey hey...big men don't cry over little things okay? You'll still see me bubs...just not every day" Ayden reached for Alex to hug him before letting Alex slip away.

And he was gone.