Jacob whitesides imagines

Hate

This includes self harm. If this is something you don't feel comfortable reading about, please don't continue reading. If any of you are struggling with self harm please know that I'm here. If you ever need to talk to someone, my Twitter is @JacobsFaveHoe don't be afraid to dm me.

I sat there on the floor, just reading everything they said. I'm Jacob Whitesides girlfriend, so I get a lot of hate. Whether it's comments on Instagram, or replies to my tweets, everything I do I get some hate. It always bothered me, but usually I was able to just ignore it. I don't know what was up with me today, but for some reason it just really got to me. There was all sorts of awful things being said.
"@(Y/T/N) Jacob can do sooo much better than you. I don't know why he wastes his time with you"
"I feel like (Y/N) is bringing Jacob down. Have you noticed that he seems so unhappy with her?"
Maybe she was right. Maybe I did make Jacob unhappy. Maybe he is wasting his time. Maybe he does deserve better. The more a thought about it, the more I started to agree. Jacob deserved so much better. Tears streamed down my face as I ran to the kitchen. I pulled out a pencil sharpener and carefully removed the blade. I ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind me, then pulled my pants down, exposing my thighs. I made a small cut, then another, then a larger one. They just kept getting deeper, and deeper as I went. I heard the front door open and I started freaking out. I wet some toilet paper and cleaned off some of the blood, then wrapped my thigh in dry toilet paper. I pulled my pants up and left the bathroom.
"Hey babe!" I smiled hugging Jacob.
"Hey babygirl" he smiled back "I gotta use the bathroom real fast, then we can hang, okay?"
"Okay"
I sat down on the couch and got comfortable. Only a few seconds later, Jacob came out holding my blade. His eyes were teary, and he looked concerned.
"Jacob I-"
"Why?" He asked, cutting me off, "why did you do it?"
"Jacob," my eyes were starting to tear up too.
"Do I not make you happy enough?"
"No, that's not it. You make me nothing but happy"
"Then why?" He asked, letting a tear fall.
"Your fans" I admitted, "some of them are amazing really, but I do receive a lot of hate. It just hurts to know that the people that love you so much, hate me"
He set the blade down and wiped my eyes.
"(Y/n), you know I love you, right?"
I nodded my head.
"You're my whole world" he said pulling his phone from his pocket. He then started composing a tweet.
"(Y/N) is my girlfriend. I love her very much. I hate seeing her get hurt, and you guys send her a lot of hate. Please, stop hurting her like that, for me"
He locked his phone and turned to me.
"I love you. Please don't hurt yourself" he said holding me.
"I love you too" I said, letting a tear slip out.
He wiped the tear from my face and put his hand on my chin, then leaned in for a kiss.