MY FAIR LADY (Author's Reco)

WHEN ALL I KNOW IS TO LOVE YOU

LISA

I talked to Elena and we settled things out.
I told her that we should stop this and I apologized for all the pain I have caused.

I have to make things right. The moment I saw Jennie's tears after she slapped me and walked away, I realized how painful she is feeling.

She is my wife. The one I married.
She made me a better person but I am the one who created issues in my head because my ego became the center of my world.
I was wrong. So wrong.
So wrong that I led myself to cheat because I was looking for thrill and someone I can put inside my pocket.
I disresepcted my wife.
I don't know if I deserve to feel this pain.
I deserve it.
I deserve all the hate.

But I am going to fix this because I did a mistake and I can't take seeing her drifting away from me.

I arrived home and saw Jennie being comforted by Mama Joan and Tina. I still can't stop my tears because seeing Jennie so helpless right now makes me so weak.
Mama Joan and Tina are also crying while hugging Jennie.

Then they noticed my presence.

Tina assisted Jennie to our room upstairs as my wife is really weak right now.

Mama Joan came near me. She is crying. Her heart is breaking.
She cupped my face and put her forehead on mine.

"Lisa, fix this. Please. We never expected this will happen to your marriage. Knowing you for so long, I just didn't expect this. Fix this. You know how blessed you are to have Jennie in your life?
Lisa, it's not everyday that we get to find our match in life. Jennie is for you. Now, fix yourself too. Settle your relationship with your wife and do what is right.
Apologize to her. Because she's too good to have this heavy pain in her heart."
Mama Joan told me while crying. She is almost begging. My chest is being stabbed by my own hand.
I nodded while my heart breaks and wiped my tears.

I came inside our room.
It's dark and only the lamp is on.

She's at the couch, sitting while leaning her head on her palms and still sobbing.

She looked at me.

"Come here."
She said in her calm voice but still she is crying.
God. This hurts so much.
What did I do?
Why am I hurting my wife?

I went near her and knelt.
She's starting to undress herself. Pulled everything she's wearing. I tried to stop her but she became so aggressive.

"Baby, stop."
I said while catching my breath and stood up.

"No. Why should I stop?"
She said with restlessness.

She knelt in front of me and started to unbuckle my belt and removing my pants
but I stopped her again and lifted her up. She's punching my chest.
I hugged her.
She's slapping my back as her tears are becoming so heavy.

I took her clothes and covered her body.

"Fuck me the way you want. Go! Fuck me!
You want to tie me? You want to cuff me? What do you want?! You want my old self, Lisa? You know I'm bitchier than your mistress! You know what I was before we met! Do it! Do it, Lisa! Why are you resisting? Do everything to me so you wouldn't look for others to feed your sexual interests! I'm your wife and you can do everything you want to me right? Even if I am sick! Even if my body can't handle to have sex at some point, you still insisted. What now?!
Why? You don't want me anymore? Because you've used me so many times already?! You want someone younger? I am sorry if I can't turn back time and there's no way!