MY FAIR LADY (Author's Reco)

TEA FOR THREE

JENNIE

A month passed and I still feel cold towards her.
I can't just force myself to be okay.
Good thing Jisoo, Rosé and Hyeri are visiting me from time to time either at my house or somewhere my org has meetings.
They just found out too when I told them.
I feel bad too seeing my friends cry over our problem as a couple.

Jisoo assured me that she'll be tighter to Lisa by this time. But I told her she never had a lapse and even if we tie someone, if that person chooses to cheat, she will make a way.
She actually spoke to Lisa and I can see from afar in our house that she is crying. They're both crying.

I just oriented Lisa's security, her driver and all the people working at her in the Palace to keep the secret. I know they are loyal to me and do as I say.

The President was so fucking great hiding a secret from everyone.

From the day I caught her, she always updates me of her whereabouts and what she does. Even if I am still a bit icy towards her, she still keeps winning me back and proving that she can change and will never do it again.

But as I have said, I can't force myself to be okay.
I was cheated on by the person I ever love so much.

There are still times that I get up in the middle of the night because I dream of those videos. It keeps coming back then my heart would start to palpitate and I just cry.

She would get up too and get water for me and calm me until I go back to sleep.

I still make sure that I get to do my responsibilities as a wife and a mother. Also, as the First Lady of this nation, I need to be back in shape and hustle.

Whenever she tells me she loves me, I don't know how to respond anymore.
I love Lisa. I still do. I love her so much. But this pain inside me is worst.

Her parents visited us and they noticed there's something heavy inside our home.
We both told them what happened and Mom cried and hugged me.

Dad talked to Lisa privately.

Then they both talked to us and gave us advices.
Mom and Dad apologized to me for what happened. I told them it was not their fault.

When they left the house, Lisa went to me at the backyard and brought a cup of hot milk.

"I– I really don't know how to apologize to you anymore, Jen. But I will prove to you everyday that I am doing the right thing. I am sorry if I cheated."
She spoke up while drinking her beer in front of me.

"Lisa, can you point out where did I go wrong? I mean, am I lacking something? Is there something from me that you cannot get that's why you searched for it from other woman?"
I asked. We're calm. Mature.
But I admit I am afraid to hear her answers. I know it would help me heal.
Maybe.

She cleared her throat and her eyes are becoming watery.

"None. You're amazing. You're perfect!
I– I just felt like I'm unwanted. You know I have always been an achiever. School, the UN and being the President of this country. I'm used to people agreeing with me, everything I say, they all follow.
Then problems came like a hurricane and it reached to a point that I wanted to escape. But then there's you, my Jennie who's quick to fix my government scars. My Jennie who has swift decisions when I ask. My wife people follows and serves as an insipiration not only to the adults but as well as the youth.
I– I was fed by my ego. It's telling me you're the gem of the world, Lisa. You're the greatest. And they must all follow you.
I was selfish, love. I was."
She explained while wiping her tears and drank her beer.