Estrella. | Haiba Lev

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stw: slight abuse

"What baby are you talking about?" Why is he here? Why is he... What is he doing here? "(Y/n), what baby is he talking about? Is it Honami's?"

"What are you doing here?" Please.. Why is he here?

"Your father wanted me to come over to watch over you..." Why.. is he here? "But, what baby are you talking about?" Makoto steps closer to him, and I try to pull him back. "Why are you with my girlfriend?"

"She's pregnant.. with my child. That's the baby." Makoto says, and leaves us on our own.

"Lev, I-I'm... I-I will abort the baby... s-so don't worry... I'm aborting it..... Let's talk, okay? Let's... Let's talk... Please.. Give me a chance to explain..." I reach for his hand, but he pulls it away. "Lev.."

"(Y/n)... We're done.. Let's just..." He says, and leaves without ever once looking me in the eye.

I head back inside, and break down, crying everything out. I thought that maybe, if I cried about it... I'd be fine. I thought that I'd be alright after crying, but crying only made me want to cry more. I stayed up all night, crying and cursing myself for getting myself into this mess.

The next morning, I felt like it was useless to go to school. It wasn't... It was... Lev and I are over. He broke up with me, and he didn't even try to listen to me. I understand. He hates me... he does.. he finally does. He finally will admit that he hates me. I'm a jerk after all.

At the lockers, I met Lev and our eyes met too. I wave my hand, and he just walks away after wearing his slippers. Athena blocks my way, and I head to my locker, seeing her lean against the one next to mine. She's smiling victoriously, and looking at me like she won... she..

"I heard you two broke up, and that you are pregnant." I bite my lip, and try my best to ignore her. "Well, he finally realizes how much of a mistake you are—" "Athena."

Lev walks over to us, and takes her away. I watch them leave, and I put up an act of being okay as I headed over to the classroom. Honami turned to me right away, and I merely smiled at her, but she was glaring daggers at me. She must've heard.

"(Y/n), you said that you're going to abort the baby, so why.. did you two break up?" I am aborting it. "Didn't you explain?"

"He broke up with me, then walked away. How could I possibly explain?" She smacks my head, and I find her pouting. "What is it now? He wouldn't let me explain, nor would he hear me out..."

"You could've chased after him!" I shake my head, and rest it on my desk. "So, are you going to keep the baby? Now that Lev and you have broken up? You can be with Makoto if you had wanted... so, will you?" I shake my head again, and she sighs in relief.

"I'm aborting the baby.. I already told him that I will.. but I don't know when to do it. I'm scared because.. I haven't told my parents." I say, and she cups my cheeks and kisses my forehead. "This is scary.. I.."

"I'll be there. You don't have to worry about this.." I just force a smile, and she starts making funny faces to cheer me up.

The fact that I'm stressed, and choosy with my food.. and no one knows why, it's sickening. I'm not sure when to do the procedure, but I do think that I will need some time to actually decide when. It has to be soon. It can't be in months because by then.. the baby will be formed in my womb and that would really make feel like I've killed it.