Till Forever Falls Apart//English

{12} Louis

(p.o.v Louis )

After my parents left the room, I hear the door open again. Louis!" I hear someone call out. I cough and turn my tearful eyes to the person. I look Harry straight in the eyes. Ow Louis' he whispers and runs towards me. He hugs me and asks, 'Should I leave you alone for a bit?' I try to open my mouth and say, 'No, I've been here the whole time!' The doctor comes in and Harry goes back to the waiting room.

The doctor explains to me that I'll have to stay here for a few days. My parents say goodbye again and leave together with Harry back home.

I look at my mother, tears rolling down my cheeks. Mum, I can't.' She takes my hand and looks at me sadly. Louis, we'll stay with you, whatever happens. The doctor comes in and explains everything. We listen in silence. There is a strange, chilly tension in the room.

Immediately after his explanation, we start the chemo. Louis, you get a special infusion port at your collarbone, so we only have to prick once. You will have two chemos this week. Do you have any questions? After thinking for a moment, my mother asks a few more questions, I'm not listening anymore, I don't like this. The doctor says a friendly goodbye and leaves the room.

Five minutes later the nurse arrives. Louis, take off your shirt," she says immediately. She disinfects the place where the infusion is to be inserted and connects the chemo. After the treatment, she says: 'If you need anything, press the red button', and leaves the room.

I feel the power drain from my body. Immediately I fall asleep.

When I wake up I feel strange. Mum is sitting next to me and is still holding my hand. You're still there?" I try to say cheerfully. Yes, of course I'm still here. You don't think I'd leave you, do you?' 'No, but I thought you...' I try to say but then suddenly I feel very nauseous.

I immediately stand up and put my hand over my mouth. Mum hands me a bowl. I close my eyes and hope that the nausea will go away. Open your eyes Louis', I hear someone whisper.

I open my eyes and see my mother. I didn't know if you were still conscious,' she says with fear in her voice. After a while another nurse comes. She has a cart with breakfast. At the sight of the food, my stomach turns again.

Hi louis, how are you? I feel nauseous, but everything else is ok. Maybe you should eat something,' she encourages me. 'Nah, I'm afraid I'm going to throw up.' Maybe something light? Like a yogurt? I nod and take a bite. Would you like something to drink? J'a like a tea' I say with a dry throat. She gives me a cup. Thank you. When she is gone again, I calmly eat my yogurt and drink my tea.

Mama, am I always going to feel this way? 'Yes dear, some times worse than others, I'm sorry.' The door swings open again and the doctor enters.

Hello Louis,' he says cheerfully, 'how are you feeling? 'Nauseous,' I tell him bluntly back. That's normal, we'll do what we can to cure you. We'll give you your second test soon and then you can go home tomorrow.' Tomorrow! Not today?" I say disappointedly. No, it's too soon,' he says to me and my mother wipes away a tear. Ok, thanks. When the doctor leaves the room, they fill with tears and my eyes immediately close with fatigue.