Falling Hard

Chapter Six (the ugly truth)

Part six

I opened my eyes slowly , ouch! I had a terrible headache. I looked at the ceiling and I opened my eyes widely blinking so many times , I raised myself in the bed remembering everything! Every detail of last night. We kissed! I kissed him back! This can't be happening! My stomach! Gosh why was I having butterflies right now remembering his lips on mine! His soft wet lips and its perfect taste...Shit what was I thinking of! I should be mad right now.

I raised from the bed and looked at myself through the mirror , ok I looked shitty with yesterday's clothes and bags under my eyes. I I grabbed a black t_shirt and jeans to wear. Once I got rid of yesterday's dress , the door was opened. I turned to find Alex standing in the doorframe looking at...my body! Shit I was only in my bra and panty "GET OUT" I screamed and turned around , I tried to cover myself with the dress but I gave him my back! Shit. When I didn't hear the door being closed I turned my head and found him still looking at me with a smirk. He was looking at my body with desire! I felt goosebumps all over my skin and butterflies! Again! That's not going well "GET OUT ALEXANDER!" his eyes met mine then he stepped back and closed the door.

Good! At least I can think of what I should do! I dressed myself but I was not ready to face him , I was so so embarrassed! It was not me! I dirty danced with him then kissed him! Gosh I was about to...sleep with him. He stopped probably because he respected me , he saw that I was drunk so he stopped but me! I asked him why! What's wrong with me!

I opened the door of the room trying to breath , I walked towards the kitchen and there he was drinking coffee his warm wet lips meeting the cup! Why was I acting like a pervert! Ok i admit it I was sexually attracted to him , but I would never do what I did last night if I wasn't drunk. He wasn't drunk but he kissed me! He was the one to be blamed for sure.

"I made a cup of coffee for you" his husky voice toke me out of my thoughts.

"y...yeah thank you" I rubbed my hands on my jeans , he noticed that I was nervous

He took few steps towards me "you were drunk last night" he said with a smirk on his lips

No , please don't go through this "yes...it was stupid...I made troubles and I am sorry"

"yes , you should be sorry because you kissed me"

Shit! I knew that was coming , wait he kissed me! "well you seemed satisfied!" how could he get on my nerves so easily

He smiled widely "why are you angry!"

Are you kidding me! "look I was drunk and it was wrong ok? We did a horrible thing and we should be sorry"

"why are you always giving meanings to things! It was nothing ok? It meant nothing to me" asshole! How could he say that! he kissed me so....good and I could see the desire in his eyes

"meanings! Of course I didn't give it a meaning it was just wrong" I lied "wait a minute, you weren't drunk why the hell did you kiss me?! I thought you respected your friend" ok now I was really really pissed off

"I am a man Anastasia...I have made out with a lot of girls without giving a meaning to it. It's a manly thing ok?" he was looking deeply inside my eyes to convince me. But why on earth was I hurt! "I stopped because I respect my friend , I can't do this to Jake otherwise you would wake up to find yourself naked"

Fucking asshole I was mad and...hurt! How could he say that! I was just a slut to him! He would have slept with me If I hadn't been his friend's fiancee! He would have used me in my drunk state! "ok! I am out of here...I will pack my suitcase and go"

"yes , and this what I wanted to tell you" he said with a calm voice , he said it so easily that I wanted to scream and slap him but no I won't make him happy seeing me angry I will act cool.