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section 4

minchan slowly opens his eyes as the view beside treated him hoyoung who is sleeping peacefully. he pats hoyoung head softly as he sighed.

" why did I leave you alone? "

hoyoung suddenly opens hid eyes in panic as he grabs minchan tightly makes him tensed a bit as he holds hid breathe.

" hoyoung? "

" chanie? "

" it's just me...did I make you scared? "

" sorry...I had a nightmare. "

hoyoung lets go off minchan hand as he lifted himself up from the bed.

" then it wasn't a great sleep. do you want to talk to me about it? "

" forget about it, just a nightmare. "

minchan is going to say something to hoyoung as they hear someone is knocking on the door.

" it's fine chanie, let me open it. "

hoyoung smiles to minchan when he saw his face frowned a bit because minchan knows that is one of their members.

" gyehyeonie?! "

" why do you seem to be surprise to see me? "

" nothing...but why did wake up so early this morning, we have a break day today? "

" am I not allowed to wake up early? "

" that's not what I mean... "

" hey! hoyoung is just care about you jo gyehyeon! "

minchan angrily pulls hoyoung behind his back as he is now standing face up with gyehyeon.

" what do you want from us right now, this early in the morning? "

" I'm talking to hoyoung hyung, not you. "

" oh you are calling him 'hyung' now? what a surprise from someone like you. "

gyehyeon's anger finally won against his self calmness.

" what do you mean by someone like me? "

" do I need to explain how you truly are to you mister selfish? "

" did you just call me selfish? "

" can't you hear it by your own ears? "

hoyoung covers his ear from those two who is screaming at each other no mercy. the nightmare he had last night is really bad makes him has the trust that today won't be a good day for him. in fact, since when he heard them talking like that about him, he never had a good day.

" what do you want minchan hyung? why are you yelling at me when I'm trying to talk to hoyoung hyung? "

" you words doesn't sound like you were going to talk to him. "

" because I saw you inside his room, did you stay here last night? "

" yes, and did you have any problems with that? I think you didn't since you don't care about hoyoung anyway. "

" who said that I didn't care about him? "

" apparently, you said that he was anothing but an annoyed person to you. "

gyehyeon takes a step back from minchan's words. he wanted to change so bad but what happened already happened, he can't take back what he had said about hoyoung. but instead of saying sorry like gyehyeon planned last night, he goes on the wrong road of saying because minchan got on his nerves.

" I didn't say anything like that. "

" how sad that I didn't record it, but you should know about what you has done gyehyeon. "

" you can't blame anyone for doing nothing wrong hyung. "

minchan's fire of anger is now raising very high inside him. how can his younger brother denied what he had done to his best friend. he won't forgive him, never.

" what is going here between you two? yelling at each other early in the morning? "

dongheon came out from his room as well as the other three got curious as they also went out to figure what is going on inside their dorm.

" oh gosh, please don't tell me that you two are fighting because of hoyoung hyung. "

" why can't we fight because of him? "

minchan walks closer to yeonho who is rolling his eyes after knew what is going on.

" do I need to explain about that? come one, it's not worth it. "

" how dare you say something like that to my friend?! "

yongseung stands in front of yeonho to stop him from doing something. who is gonna know what is inside his head right now.

" and how dare you threaten my friend like that? "

" I dare you to say that again yongseung. "

" how dare you threaten my friend because of someone annoying like hoyoung hyung? "

minchan narrows the distane between where he and yongseung is standing with a scary look and both of his hands raised up like he is about to choke yongseung to death.

" stop what you gonna do minchan! I dare you to step closer to him. "

minchan stopped walking as he saw the scared look on both yongseung and yeonho face in front of him. he just standing there, completely freeze in the middle of the room.

" stop yelling at each other. chanie hasn't done anything wrong. it's just me, it's me bae hoyoung who is the problems. "

hoyoung steps out of him room as he yelled to the other.

" now you know that you are the problem? why don't you realize it sooner? "

" if you did, minchan hyung and gyehyeon hyung won't get into a fight this early. "

" great, now my break day is ruined. "

gyehyeon looks at hoyoung who is standing there, very far from them with a hopeless look that he or none of them seen it before. like a miracle, he finally stepped out from his anger he couldn't control a few minutes back then.

" shut ut you three, go inside your bedroom. "

dongheon is surprised by gyehyeon's words as he doesn't know what to say.

" stop it already... "

hoyoung lets out a small sob as he runs into the bathroom. after locking the door carefully, he turns on the water and keep it open in order that no one can hear he is crying. sliding down beside the bathroom wall, hoyoung finally lets himself burst into tears.

why does he even exist?

the tears keeps on falling down on hoyoung face as he repeatedly hitting himself. the hit is hardly enough to make him hurt but why can't he feel anything now. he couldn't understand. why him, why it has to be him? what did he even do wrong to go through all of this hatred?

should he kill himself?

hoyoung holds his legs closer to his face as he places it on top of his knee. he couldn't handle his feelings anymore, he couldn't pretend he was fine anymore. chanie please come here help me... someone please come...

" hyungie? "