Chasing the Light

chapter six

Kits POV

The drive to my house was silent, mainly because I was alone in my car.

Ethan is following behind me with Alina.

When he suggested she ride with him, I didn't disagree.

It's not that I don't want her with me, I do trust me.

This is just giving me a chance to make a phone call, not one I'm looking forward to but one I need to make. I'm going to call Lucy.

I haven't spoken to her in a few days, and not for her lack of contact. She's left me several messages, every new one worse than the last.

I don't know what I'm going to say to her, even as I dial her number.

One ring and she immediately picks up as if she's been waiting for my call.

"Where the hell have you been?-" She doesn't stop at that. Her voice is loud and hostile.

I don't speak for a minute or so, I'm just letting her run out. Eventually she'll stop when she notices I'm not talking.

"Kit? Are you there?" I sighed quietly, relieved she stopped yelling.

"I'm here." She jumps back into the conversation full force. "Well? Where are you?" I tightened my grip on the steering wheel and looked into my rear view mirror, catching a glimpse of Ethan and Alina.

"I'm with a few friends but I need to talk to you about something." Just tell her how you feel, be honest. She starts asking me what friends and saying I don't have any that she doesn't know. I'm starting to lose my nerve. I can feel it waning.

"Kit! What friends-" I snapped.

"Stop! Now please be quiet so I can tell you something!" I'm met with silence on the other end of the line.

"I can't do this anymore. I can't keep pretending that I'm happy in this anymore, because I'm not. I'm miserable." She doesn't say anything so I continue. "I really want to be happy but I can't force it and that's what I've been doing for the last 4 years. I think we both have been." I heard her scoff before she spoke up again.

"You are so full of it. I don't even need you anymore. Danny and I have been spending a lot of time together in your absence." She spit out that last part. I felt a lump form in my throat, I couldn't speak to that. Danny is or was my closest friend. We went to university together and even got jobs near each other to stay in touch.

"What? No retort to your best friend and your girlfriend hitting it off?" I swallowed, trying to force away the lump.

"Ex girlfriend." That's all I could get out. I heard her laugh quietly before she pulled the phone closer to her mouth.

"Fine by me Kit, fine by me."

The line clicked dead as I pulled to a stop in front of my apartment. Ethan pulled into the parking spot next to me and I turned my face away. After everything Lucy has done, I'm not sure why I'm crying. It might be over Danny, a lost friendship or I'm finally realizing that the last 4 years of my life were wasted on that cruel woman.

I wiped my face, trying to hide the last couple of minutes like they never happened.

Ethan and Alina are already out of their car and grabbing out their bags. I joined them and took Alinas bags from her before I led them to my front door.

"I have a pull out couch in the living room and a guest bedroom across from mine." I pointed in the directions of both rooms.

"Alina, you can take the guest bedroom and I'll take the pull out." She smiled at her brother before following me to her new room. Danny is the only other person to stay in this room, but I pushed those memories aside and pushed open the door.