Dawn || ℑ 𝔉𝔢𝔢𝔩 𝔗𝔥𝔢 𝔏𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 ✅

You're Free

On the day of my father's funeral procession, I didn't attend.

On my way there, I had fallen unconscious and was rushed to the hospital by Seungmin. When I woke up, it was over with the dead already resting in eternal peace.

"After all these years, he was finally able to be with Mother. I think my father has been waiting for this day for a long time." After all, Father's only last wish was to be buried with Mother.

"I didn't manage to see him one last time." I looked at Seungmin. "In this life, I owe my father the most. I always indulged in his affection but did not fulfil my fidelity towards him. I'm not a filial son."

My conscience was condemning me.

"He will forgive you."

I shook my head. "No, I'd rather that he never forgive me. I don't deserve his forgiveness. I've always let him down, he shouldn't have such a failure for a son."

Seungmin put a hand on my shoulder. "You're tired, take a rest."

"I can't fall asleep." Holding my head in my two hands, I said painfully, "I'm afraid that everyone will leave me in my dreams. When they leave, I will remain there, unable to go anywhere."

"Jisung, your moods are very unstable recently. If you go on like this, it will affect the treatment." Seungmin's expressions contained slight worry, "Do you need me to prescribe some sedatives for you?"

"I don't know. Seungmin, I don't know what to do. It must have been that I was always doing things wrong, so everyone doesn't want me. I can't keep a single person with me. I must be reaping the fruits of my actions where no one will forgive me."

I got emotional and began to talk incoherently.

"Calm down, Jisung." Seungmin hugged me tightly in his arms while whispering comfortingly in my ear, "You still have me."

He patted me on the back lightly. "I'll always stay by you. No matter what you do wrong, I'll forgive you."

Seungmin then told me to take some sleeping pills, and I was finally able to fall asleep after a while.

The next day I went back to the apartment. Seungmin was originally worried about my mental condition and wanted to stay with me but in the end, I managed to convince him to go to work.

Our meeting only led to me bringing him many troubles. My emotional state had always been weak and I was too dependent on him. In the long run, it would inevitably make him neglect others.

Even if everything was his will, I didn't want to be his emotional burden.

I should gradually learn to be independent with my heart. After all, it was unrealistic to expect love or comfort from others forever.

If I failed again, it was not unreasonable either.

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As expected, Felix came to find me after the call he made yesterday was cut off by the flustered Kim. For him to stay till the end of the funeral with a countenance that betrayed nothing even after that couldn't have been easy.

Admittedly, my actions had been excessive so I didn't blame him for his criticisms.

Still, in a poor state, I approached Felix with a blanket around me.

With a bad complexion on his face, he threw a stack of newspapers on the table without a word. At the top of it was an image of Felix wearing a black suit standing alone in the corner of the mourning hall solemnly. The black characters on one side were also very eye-catching "A father's funeral was only attended by his adopted son, and it is suspected that the two sons of the Han family are incompatible", the media had always been making groundless accusations, refusing to let go of any opportunity to spread rumours and create trouble.