After Evelyn left I started getting ready to see James.I wore a pretty,white,short summer dress with flowers all over it. I went out to the yard right before the sun sets. It was peaceful,quiet and I had some time to think about what Evelyn said. While I was thinking I saw James arriving to the beach,I immediately forgot everything and I ran out to see him.
I had plans for that night,I wanted to talk to him,about everything and make sure we are friends again. But when we saw each other the only thing I could do is enjoy it but I knew I had to tell him the truth so we can be friends again only difference is that this time I only wanted us,not anyone else,not Beth.
After the fight I had with Evelyn I couldn't get the things she said out of my head.That's why I asked him about Beth. When he said that they were in touch and they're hanging out my hear literally broke. I was so upset because all this time I was suffering alone and he was with Beth?Seriously?
After what he said I stopped walking,when he realized he turned back and asked me "hey what's wrong?" I answered "I am sorry you just told me you talk with Beth,after everything that has happened,and you ask me what's wrong?How could do this?After two years your remembered you wanna be friends with her" James said that it was random and he had just missed her.
Everything in my mind was just blurry and I was trying to figure out what should I do or say. My lips were shaking,my eyes were becoming more and more red as the time went by,James kept talking but I couldn't hear him,it was like these dramatic scenes from a movie when something bad happens and they just film the character in slow motion. This is exactly how I felt,these 50 seconds felt like hour's.
I remember saying to him "you are unbelievable" and walking away.I went back to Evelyn's house she hadn't come back yet. I thought "why should I stay here,Evelyn and I are not cool,James is the same fucker he always was so what am I still doing here".
So I packed my things,I grabbed my keys and I left.The time was 12.30 am and I was 6 hours away from home.I put some music and I started driving. Driving was my favourite thing to do since I was seven years old,my dad used to take me to an empty road and he would let me drive.When I drive I am a completely different person.No matter how bad things are when I drive I am just numb.
Well I was numb until I was out of gas in the middle of the night because before I left I thought that it was completely normal to go on a six hour road trip without putting gas first.
I had three options. First was to call my parents to pick me up at 1.30 am in the morning,which I immediately figured that it was not a good idea. Second was to call Evelyn,but if I did I would have to explain to her what happened and she would probably say something like "I told you so"which was not exactly what I needed to hear at that moment. Or call James who is probably awake and has a car and is the only person I knew from there. So yeah we went with the third one.
The last thing I wanted to do is to call James but I kinda had to. I told him what had happened and he told me to wait and that he'll be there.
After a while he showed up,he helped me park my car and I went in his car so we could go home.He had bought my favourite pizza and my favourite drink with a candy promise ring we used to give to each other when we were younger. It may sound lame but honestly my heart mealt.Obviously I didn't forgive him right away but I did eventually.
I asked him if we could just let this Beth thing go for the road trip and to talk about it tomorrow. He agreed of course and it was one of the best nights in my life. We started bringing up old inside jokes and all of our funny memories,we listened to music and of course we couldn't leave this pizza alone.It was lovely.
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