The Spy Of My Heart (smrookies)

Chapter Eight

*This part is a memory of XXX* *This part contains bad language and violence*

"You filthy b*tch! You are nothing important in our life!!!!!!!!!" My mom screamed at me while she kicked me in the stomach. All the nights are like this, my mom abusing me like this and my father drinking in the living room doing nothing about the situation. They keep abusing me and I do nothing about it, why? Because I think I deserve the beats. I keep being a disturbance in their lives and I feel bad about that, they don't deserve to have such a child.

I went to my room when my mom told me to get out of her sight, I fell on the floor and started to cry. Are they always going to be like this? I know already that I don't mean anything but they don't have to remind me that every time. I don't deserve to live, always the same bullsh*t happens every day and I'm tired, I don't even know if I have a purpose in life. I don't understand why I, a young girl, has to have such a life.

"I'm an idiot. I hate myself so much." I cried, I got to my bed and fell asleep with fresh tears in my cheeks.

I woke up the next day, "Another day, Another scar." I look at the mirror to see my face red and swollen, I got to the bathroom and got ready for school. I got out of the bathroom already with my outfit on and looked out of the room, "Ah, it's raining." I smile, whenever it's raining I just feel a little calmer and relaxed. I walked down the stairs and looked around the living room to see if my parents are here, it looks like they got to work. I got my red umbrella and walked down the streets to the school. I finally got there and went to my classroom, the second I entered the room there were paper balls thrown to my face. My classmates laughed and I took a seat at my table beside my quite classmate, it doesn't matter anyway, he only doesn't talk to me because he's popular.

"Ok class, take a seat, today we will be talking about....." The teacher's voice drifted out of my mind when I looked outside the window at the droplets of rain.

Finally, recess. I walked down the hallway while people called me nicknames and threw me jokes. It didn't matter for me, it was always like this........unfortunately. I got to the cafeteria and ordered my food, I looked around the room and noticed a empty table. I took a seat and started eating my lunch when I felt something cold in my shirt, I looked down to see my shirt wet. I heard laughs and I look up to see one of the popular girls smirking at me.

"Oops, sorry, it spilled." She smiled mischievously, I got up and started to walk out of the cafeteria while the laughing drifted away every time I took a step in the hallway. I open my locker, grab my bag and then started heading to the bathroom. I changed into a new shirt and then left my bag in my locker again, I decided that it was a waste just being in school today if I was just going to get laughed at the entire day. I walked out of the school after escaping the officer and started running away from there to my house. I walked inside to find my parents making out in the living room, awkkkk that's just disgusting.

"Why did you interrupt us?! What is your problem?!" My mom screamed at me when she saw me, she grabbed my hair and I screamed from pain.

"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN!" My mom pushed me out of the house and stumped the door in my face. I felt hot tears running out of my face, I just got kicked out of my house. I was left there for 30 minutes when I thought it was enough, they are not going to look for me anyway. I started getting away from the house when I turn around.

"Finally, you got what you wanted, I hope you are happy." I whispered and started running way from there. I looked around to see that the streets were lonely, I was walking when I felt a hand around my wrist.

"Hello there beautiful, what are you doing alone here?" A guy whispered in my ear and I shrieked. I just looked down and said nothing. He grabbed me by the arms and pushed me to a closed street, I panic, what is he going to do to me?